Dear Stranger,
My day is alright today, still having a bad migraine however at least I know for sure that I'm resting in early tonight. It is weekend already and I'm looking forward to a few days of recharge.
Yesterday and the last week was a disaster. I don't know what I'm feeling but I know it wasn't great. Day by day I'm losing myself. Losing myself to the work I'm doing, losing my passion my energy and my patience, and slowly I'm losing my smiles, my soul and and my inner peace.
& I always thought I can keep this part of life under the blanket as I am happier in other aspects of my life, such as love.
I used to think I gonna be a career woman, until I met him. During those days, Love Matters Most, his happiness matters most, being together matters most. Career? Since I don't like whatever I'm doing, and I'm doing it out of desperation, I gonna bear with it because I have him. With him, I'm not afraid of anything.
I want to have a family of my own. I want a marriage where there's trust, fidelity (emotionally and physically) and open communication. I want to love as much as I can and I do mind giving my everything to exchange for the love we share.
Slowly I'm losing myself & the love and I'm not sure what went wrong.
There's strong moments on and off that I would want to end my life and today is one of it. I like staying in the dark room, alone on my bed and please don't bring me the light.
Dear Stranger, what am I doing here?
Dear Stranger, I miss him, I miss him so much.