12:23 AM 8:38 PM "I recognized your handwriting even better than i recognized my own. it started out straight, then ran down diagonally down the page, and no letter looked the same, but i loved it. It reminded me of when you looked up from your journal and poked my forehead with your pencil and said, "you're beautiful, you know that?" The day you depart, the letters you gave. I had left it on my desk and read a sentence a day, savouring your handwriting with my eyes so i could pretend you were still here. The last word written was also the word i thought of when i realized that you only wrote of things you were afraid to say." "gone."
dont imagine and assume that love/relationship is so holy. it some kinda send me goosebumps. how irritating.
it's not about saying it all th time. Nor is it about putting words into people's mouth. It's not about elaborating how deep/great/or-whatever-adjectives-you-can-find is your whether-or-not-one-sided-love. So unsightly.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
slack
4:03 PM
slacker in disguise.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
i got th job
8:30 PM
im happy! everything that happens today goes so smoothly!
Firstly, i talk to my boss and he's such a friendly guy,
and I got the job!
hehe,
I went to woodlands library and th book that I wanted is not on loan!
hohoho,
then, every lending slots are taken except th number 9 slot.
I dont need to wait like an idiot for th number 9 slot to be freed this time :D
hope exams are like this smooth too! sigh! bless be.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
disgusting
12:02 PM
if you think that being in love is sticking with each other everyday, hahas, you've neglected th fact that, "hey, it's disgusting."
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
chop
9:50 AM
chop off my nose, my throat, my head.
Im tired of feeling unwell.
wish me good luck for that interview later :D
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
disappointment
7:50 PM
"sorry, I disappoint you once again."
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
th bond
8:36 AM
She says, this period of relationship is dangerous. However, once you survive it, this bond between us will be stable and strong.
Can we survive th Changed?
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
happy bdae me!
11:57 PM
Hahahas, Im 18th :D
and I feel that my birthday is spread within alot of days!
I felt warm when you all are with me :D
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
contradicting
10:30 PM
irritated
Anyway, Im this BIG irritated! -open my arms and stretch them to th furthest-
Grrr, my msn is freaking me out.
And today, something happened and made me come up with this decision that I promise that i gna abide to it no matter how it turns out be in th future. That something that happened obviously doesnt refer to good things. All in all, I know that, I gna remb it forever! Grrr! Becos this time, I know I can never ever forgive this unless, by lil chances close to miracle, you're able to make me do so.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Adudda Baborky
Im happy today!
I bought quite a number of things!
Hehehe! Two pairs of heels! One in red, one in Navy.
and both of them are very high! hahahahas cause they're called high heels!
Three tshirts, one for xiaoxue, one for Andrew aka Adudda, and one for Pappi!
Then I went to eat porridge buffet! YumYum!
Choco Fondue is so tasty as well!
wheet! :D:D:D
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
dinojelly
1:28 AM
dinojelly
I dont quite enjoy myself th day. 10 August.
The only enjoyment I managed to get, is when Im with my cousins! Which is when Im at home. They helped me cut my fringe. hahas. so cute.
We went to cwp to have dinner. Hmmm now, with so many weeks of training, Im really used to having dinner outside.
At th introducing of movies there, outside breadtalk, there's a poster of Orphan. Then me, babeth and celest is like seeing and comparing who looks like th girl in th poster.
"Eh Qin, you look like her lehh!"
"Where got, Babeth, you stand here, (directly under the poster), see you look alot like her, right celest?"
"Grrr! If i look like her, then you (pointing to me) and you (pointing to celest) look like her also!"
"laughs"
"laughs"
"Wait Wait, celest, you look more like her! OMG!"
"Hahaha, Andrew dont bother to entertain us now, see he walks away le."
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
i dont like being myself
4:57 PM
I currently in love with my blog songs.
I slept for near to 14 hours today. i guess it's not enough to compensate me for my lack of sleep since god knows when.
But Im better than god hehe, since th 28th July, due to CBM and then RWPS now BLAW, how am I suppose to sleep?
Right after this BLAW, im not going to do anything anymore. I will go into my deep relaxation mode of eating playing enjoying working exercising!
I dont like being myself.
However, Im grateful for being myself.
Im grateful for losing out so many things in life becos of special circumstances.
In return, I always get something good that i think, no one elses has the chance to experience.
I have a wonderful father, which care alot for me. He spent his money for me to do braces just to make me happy amisdst the very emotional period of his life.
I have a brother who will fight back anything that hurts me, who will protect me from outsiders.
I have Baby and Nono that will stay beside me, whenever I cry.
I have my parrot with me, accompany every long night Im forced to endure.
I have my W, taking care of my everything, loving my family, holding them so dearly.
I have really funny cousins that are classfied as my species that we really get along well together.
My cousins parents are really nice to me, they remembered my birthday and always bring me out for dinner and movies.
And I'm tired of being all alone,and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home. This is th reason why, I never felt such emotions of loneliness, the feeling that people wont understand, the fear that th world is soon to overcome me, when Im at home. I enjoyed staying at home. I feel safe at home. Im grateful I have my family with me, all th time.
I wanted to make sure that they are safe or free from any burdens.
I wanted to earn lotsa money thats the only way to survive.
There are some that will never understand, how money is so important in one's life. How important is it for one to work hard so as to get returns at th end of th day. There are some that do not know what they want and with this attitude, they are purely wasting their life and money. There are some, that is simply indulging themselves with everything my family is impossibly able to have, yet, they are always depriving of more.
Im thankful, my family, knows, how fortunate they are.
I wonder, who else will have th ability to affect me so greatly like th way my family does.
I love schoolwork
I really enjoy doing schoolwork. Because it makes me normal. With schoolwork, I feel that Im just like anyone elses I know in school. Sometimes I feel that I was even much more happier than everyone's in school. I love schoolwork. I really do.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
happy belated bdae H
4:48 PM
Hmmm sorry if I once said things that scare you.
Sorry for being such a devilish friend.
Sorry if I had done anything, intentionally, or unintentionally that hurt you.
Anyway!
hahas thanks, for being, my friend.
I dont make any effort to be with anyone, unless you can sense it.
I think my effort for you and G is decreasing, and had decreased by alot.
Or right from th start, both you and G dint sense my effort alrdy?
Hmmm so confusing.
Anyway, hahas after my poly, i want to stay in contact with you.
Thanks for letting me know, i quit dance, not becos of tiredness, stress, no interest.
But it's becos Im a coward. I lack courage.
H stands for, Happy Dancer.
Dance shld makes you happy, not like th way you are now.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
proper relationship
12:36 AM
define proper relationship.
What's consider proper? what isnt?
If I say, it's proper for now, does it mean, it does not apply to all other i had earlier?
Lol, contradicting.
Well, today is so happy!
i saw th handsome guy at woodlands mrt station again!
hahas it gives me ultimate motivation to go to work and walk back home! :D
Cause, he's usually there at th station at night.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
chill, take a break
2:18 AM
chill, take a break
Hmmm, when things go bad, dont panic.
It's just a sign that hints that you shld take a break.
Do not let others influence you.
Because, you're th one incharge of your own final decisions.
Even if it's a grp project, th power, to make substantial changes, is within your control.
You can survive th Change.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
hiungry
5:53 PM
hungry
Hmmm now I realise, I cant really tolerate being hungry.
I need glucose, energy, food food food.
Well, but thanks to th sandwich I taken just now, if not i think i will really die.
Hmmm at first i thought there's noodles waiting for me at home.
But to no avail, It's not.
Emotional Reasoning. Nah it's alright.
Now I think I a lil irritated that I wna rebel against my body.
Im not going to eat any thing for th rest of today.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
I miss you
6:42 AM
Do you miss someone?
Is there a time, when you miss someone so dearly that it nearly overtook your life? That kinda miss, how do you actually measure it? 100grams, 500grams or 1kilograms? You cannot define th amount of miss you have. But for every letter you wrote when you miss him/her, it weighs 5grams.
21kilograms of misses, can you reach that benchmark? He/She had alrdy wrote 4200 letters.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
empowerment
2:56 AM
Sometimes you hesistate, because you're not empowered to do such things.
Sometimes even though you know it's temporary, you still put your heart into it.
Sometimes you've th empowerment to do such things, but you hesistate as you lack courage.
Sometimes you know you arent been trust but you still uphold th faith of being trusted one day.
Sometimes, you're not empowered to do things, but you still do it th way it shldnt be. Because you wanted it so badly.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
born to protect
12:15 AM
I will be just as fine. Becos, they're my priorities.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天