5:09 PM 2:54 PM 8:53 AM 2:59 PM 8:29 PM 12:40 AM 9:04 AM 2:31 PM 7:55 PM
carol and hazelTAN was working
carol was like so LONELY
she takelobby and was dammit sians
but HAZEL took counter! and was non stop working!
i was like LUCKY I QUIT!
go CLOSED WINDOW SHOP with my BOYFREN
out arms are locked with walking!
haahs! walk pass the closed shop around!
huuhooos! the atmosphere was nice!
SO ROMANTIC! and esp with my BOYFREN, DOREEN! hahas!
she is the first one i go CLOSED WINDOW SHOPPIN!
it was 9 plus in the morning dat time
den we played abit of catching dere!
hahas! but get scolded!
later went shopping shopping!
doreen ask ray to joined us
hahas! den we intend to go to th metro bra shop!
we was like looking looking at the BRAS!
den ray was like kelians waiting outside!
den we go try shorts! and demini!
i saw the VERY SHORT SKIRTS
and doreen wanna buy shorts!
hahas! we went into the same cubicle and try!
later to popular!
i cant find the horoscope book of leo!
all out of stock!
i will get it one day babe
later to x craft!
i wan the piercing!
but no more money le!
either take neoprints or piercing!
den i choose neoprints!
me and doreen are bad decorator!
i decorate! I LOVE NAN PENG YOU!
I LOVE MY BOYFREN!
later late le jus 12.15! hahas
both go home!
DOREEN MAKE A GOOD BOYFREN!
i told her lotsa things on the way
bout the twenty year old guy
hahas! she say if i dun hav someone i like
den go for it!
i told her i gt someone i like le!
and i say i must be faithful to HER! cos she my BOYFREN
after LOVE ; breakup
either you chose to be happy or sad
it fully depend on yourself not others
you make your choice
for your happiness
people asked me
dun i felt ke xi to jus let go like this
i dun felt ke xi at all
cos we hav gone thru happiness and misery together
and im pretty sure at the point of time
both our hearts are together
and im not letting go of the frenship we built
whenever i think of him
i will think with a smile
and will not end up crying
cos i forgotten all those bad stuffs we went thru
and wad i remember is jus those beautiful memories
i hope he see dis thou i dun think he will
lao er asked him to stop seeing my blog
cos it will make him sadder
at first when knowing dat
i felt abit angry
but after some thinking
maybe it is better
i dun wan him to be sad also
but i really wanna let him know my feelings
hahas!
i saw something which make me feel so enlighten
the something is a secret thou
i felt sad at first seeing it
cos it chunked up some unhappiness memories
but later i smiled
yahs he did it thou
smile (:
i further realise i will never regret of letting him go
cos i knew he is true dat time
he was not playing!
hahas! well i believe him from the start dat he wasnt playing
thou lotsa ppl tell me dat
i still determine
yahs it pay off!
thru all those i become stronger
shi lian can be a push factor
as loneliness make one grow
loneliness bring miseries
but miseries bring one to become stronger
thru those days of unhappiness
i cried alot and realise alot
realise dat alot care for me thou really
those dat care they dun understand
dun understand the feeling i felt
they did jump to conclusions
asked me mysteries which i dunno also
their conclusions make me further realise
in the world it is hard to find one dat truely understand you
hahas! back to normal!
no more big thinking!
im happy to think clearly
thou i repeat dat alot alot
but im really happy
taekaire zhiwei!
and theres someone, not me anymore, waiting for you
hahas! you know who she is la! (:
i think nowadays i keep zu yi someone
he catched my attention thou
hahas dun look dun look dun look at him
but cant stop myself from dat (:
i wish i gt someone to tell bout my feelings!
hahas! zhiwei! i still treat you as my best fren
can i tell you bout the him?
hahas! i hope i can chat with you bout the guy!
雨天
3:18 PM
wad we wan to do or wad we wanna be
we dun hav a choice
our fate jus being controlled by others
maybe by someone you trust
but in the end may too disappointed you
in the route they choose for you
never let go of chances
i din thou
hahas sorry to post this incident here
but it really remind me of zhiwei
i treasure him and his everything
and till th day we are over
i beg him and i tried my very best
thou really nothing came outa it
im happy dat i tried my very best
cos i did my very best i din regret at all
not a lil bit
when i give up my hopes on him
now seeing his smile
seeing his energy again
thou i dunno if it is fake or true
but i felt so proud
cos i did the right thing of letting him go
if i hav the time
i will tell him
hey you will always be my fren
my forever one
like the one in the past
but i will ensure this time
i wun fall in love with you agn
our frenship is built by every single time and care
i will treasure it lotsa lotsa
and i believe dis frenship can cross the obstacle both of us are facing
and im waiting for the day
we arent hiding from each other again
you are still my best fren (:
opps sorry too much sadistic thinking
anyway i gt terrible mood swing today
suddenly see me laugh laugh laugh
the next moment i was dammit quiet and dun wanna talk
den next moment i went scolding others
very sorry! hahas! (:
jus reach home. went causeway with hazel and nina!
later xin join us and yl also!
bought the anklet!
i find it nice really!
me xin and hazel hav!
(:
at first was going with yl zp and gz
but i went off alone
they saw wad i write on th table!
wad hell?
dat one is lyrics! purely lyrics! dun think anyhow please!
i was like oh god and i think cant face gz
so i walk away alone
hais! im so stupid
oh yahs! i dun understand
wads so good bout me?
terrible mood swing!
hot tempered!
impatient!
love LAUGHING!
frank!
slow and retarded!
stubborn!
love face!
inconsiderate!
and i love to act TOUGH!
anyway! i think im really weird charact!
雨天
3:55 PM
no one will BOTHER to study eng unless she or he is a study FREAK
kays today alrite
chinese lesson in library
i hate library SERIOUSLY!
cos i no one to sit with la!
last time used to hav one!
but luckily i pulled zhikun with me
i cant always stick with zhanpeng and guozheng
since i scare the more i stick with dem
the more rumours bout me and guoguo
and the more he will avoid me!
hey gross!
i and zhikun chatted the whole one hour!
huuuhooos (:
physic test!
i left few page blank
lazy do cos no use raking my mind since the result also will fail de
i bet with yongliang agn dat i will get the last in class!
huuuhooos!
cos section i did NOTHING (:
tml ss le!
play maple first!
hahas at midnight den study hao le!
Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people.
Ok, tag at least 5 people to do the quiz too.
1) YIXIN
2) HAZEL
3) XINNI
4) FELICIA
5) AQILAH
6) WENGLUN
7) KAISENG
8) SZELING
9) HUIMIN
10) CAROLNYE
11) DOREEN
12) MEIXIA
13) YONGLIANG
14) GUOZHENG
15) ZHANPENG
16) ZHIWEI
17) ANGEL
18) YUEWEN
19) POIXIN
20) ZHIKUN
Tagged > NO NEED TAG LA! DO FOR FUN
And, these are the questions.
1. How did you meet 14?
>> LMAOS! IN RIVERSIDE! HE WAS MY DAD IN SEC 1 BECOME MY TAIJIAN IN SEC 2!
2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
>> YIXIN! HUUUHOOOS! CANT TEASE BOUT ONE HEIGHT LE!
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
>> ZHIKUN AND HUIMIN! OH GOD? PLEASE DUN FOOL ME!
4. Did you ever like 19?
>> I WUN EVER LIKE AHPOI! COS I LOVE HER! LMAOS!
5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
>> WENGLUN AND ANGEL? LMAOS! I GET KENA BEATEN UP IF I SAY YES!
6. Describe 3.
>> OH GOD! I LOVE HER! HAHAS! SHE IS SUPER KEESIAOS!
7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
>> YAHS! COS IM SERIOUSLY ATTRACTED TO SZELING!
8. Tell me something about 7.
>> HIS HAIR NOW GROW LIKE SHIT! HAHAS!
9. Do you know any of 12's family?
>> I JUS KNOW SHE GT TWO SIS WHICH ARE VERY SHORT LIKE ME! HAHAS
10. What's 8's favourite?
>> SZELING HUHS! HAHAS ME AND HER ARE ADDICTED TO TORTOISE!
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
>> HUUUHOOOS! YUEWEN LOVE ME?! HAHAS I KNOW DAT!
12. What language does 15 speak?
>> SPEAKS ENG AND CHINESE AND MR RAHDA LANGUAGE! (:
13. Who is 9 going out with?
>> HUUUHOOOS! NO ONE! I KNOW SHE JUS LOVE ME! HAHAS HUIMIN!
14. How old is 16 now?
>> 15 LA! LMAOS! INDEED HE IS OLD!
15.When's the last time you talked to 13?
>> JUS NOW ON THE PHONE! I WAS COMPLAINING TO HIM!
16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
>> SERIOUSLY I DUNNO! HAHAS! RUIEN??
17. Would you ever date 4?
>> HUUUHOOOS! OF COS YES! COS I LOVE HER BABE!
18. Would you ever date 7?
>> HE IS MY LAOGONG ALREADY! LAODA HELP ME DATE ONE! HAHAS!
19. Is 15 single?
>> OF COS HE IS! HAHAS! MASHIMARO!
20. What is 10's last name?
>> HAHAHAHAS! HER LAST NAME IS HA! CAROLNYE HA!
21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
>> YAHS! DOREEN! SHE IS MY NAN PENG YOU!
22. What school does 3 go to?
>> RIVERSIDE NORS!
23. Where does 6 live?
>> SINGAPORE IN YISHUN BESIDE CHONPANG! HUUUHOOOS!
24. What's your fav thing about 5?
>> I LOVE HER! COS SHE LOVE ME AND CALL ME DARLIN! HAHAS! TRUTHFULLY I LOVE HER KEESIAOS!
25. Have you seen number 1 naked?
>> NO! I WILL GET KILLED BY YIXIN!
雨天
3:07 PM
sorry for offending
i jus speaking deep from my heart
dat stupid lex
dun ever be sadistic
you dun hav th right to be sad or depressed
i repeat you DUN
so jus keep your fcukin emotions and lead your life happily
you initiated it so you dun hav the right to be sad
oh yahs
stop hiding okays
you know you sucks at it
i comment on you NOW
as i dun care if im anything on you already
hate me people for saying bout him
i know ppl will hate me
but i rather he hate me than staying in th unhappy state
雨天
din talk in school or in class
keep almost shut
i tried to cry la
but seriously no tears
carryin happy fruit during lesson time
feel so warm la
during a maths
xinni and i was imagine if me and th twenty year old guy was together
he is height 183 and police force
know how to ride a motorbike
xinni say he will look like a bodyguard if we go out
police protecting me?
when he fetch me go school
he will be in his motorbike riding me
xinni and me was like WAHS! SO COOL!
she ask me to consider
thou he was 2o year old
but police can give one more security?
hais i will consider thou i dun wan any now
and i hav complete no feelings for him
雨天
10:59 PM
he is my happy fruit as well as my IRRITATING fruit
i hav a quarrel with him
hais! we jus went bickering
im fan and sad today
yongliang tell me he also very fan
can see la
hais forget it
i today very bad tempered and i did showed attitu when going out
jus wanna say sorry to guozheng
bout dat quarrel
dat guozheng
he is my dearest happy fruit
but is also th most irritating fruit ever!
he can cheer me up when im sad
and make it to th worst and angered mood
today th 24 april
second year so fast past
dat jh, th twenty year old police nahs
tml going school with him?
hais im fan
think tml i gonna talk straight and directly to him le
cos i dun like drag it anymore
and we are jus frens
nothing else
thou i mus admit he is funny
i played maple
im lame and childish
thanks i know dat
i played for someone la
hahas and i chose bootes but not aquila for some reasons also
oh yahs i bought a tortoise with szeling!
and i gonna name it HAPPY FRUIT
hope dat HAPPYFRUIT can also make me happy nahs!
oh yahs! i jus keep carrying dat!
can you imagine i carried the tortoise to school and everywhere and even causeway when having dinner!
hahas! dats childish la
dis few days will be in th bad of th bad moods
pardon me darlings
i no mood play le
i jus realise im leaving so much people life
cos im useless
from startin of dis term
so much things happen
it never stop
th worst days i went true
in pain ; in tears ; and going dead
cos of those things make me realise so much
yahs i admit
i able to think in a more open way in brighter mind
and i found out dat
people hav differnt thinkings
and those thinking can directly affect us
i wonder why all things happen without a notice
or am i too stupid to notice the notice
or i notice totally no notice
today on bus
yongliang let me listen to two songs
ai xiao de yan jing by vivian hsu
yahs remind me of jerk
after leaving i realise i can be happier and brighter
wo hui hao hao de
remind me to stay strong and tough
most important tell me dat if one dun love you
from the start you shldnt hav started
you never know giving them hopes and break dem all down and told dem it is all purely false hopes
dats hurt alot alot
i longed for someone to hug me tight and watch me cry
i felt depressed again
雨天
6:35 PM
hahas! 183cm lmaos!
means i stand with him will be th same scenario i stand with laoda!
and i really wanna go to th police force le!
i swear (:
dat stupid separator th dentist put in my teeth is killing me!
kays i felt GAO WEI
雨天
i saw back carol huimin doreen and yijin!
doreeen hairstyle is nice! but i bu xi guan!
we went very high at first
but forgotten we neglected one of dem
during there
truthfully th guys all look like ah beng
den carol huimin was asking me not to say dem ahbeng so loud to avoid unneccessary troubles.
some unhappy things happen
dun wanna say bahs cos lazy to type
going home at bout 9.30
help dem take drinks dat time
i think i offended someone
on guy was asking me wad i wan
den i reply take drinks la FEIHUA
they all all stare at me when i said dat
surprised dat i went so frank? opps sorry den
later on th way home
some other things happen
mervin mus be real sad
hais we cant do anything jus be with him
they send me home after dat
wad great BOYFREN i hav ; CAROL (:
i learn a new way to call her! EH!NAN PENG YOU!
hahas! but i miss dat taijian more (:
he hav responsiblity to escort emperor home which he never done (:
reached home le
hazelTAN sms me
dat guy which i thought i offended asked for my number
lmaos? kays i act dat i was sleepin
never replied
carol called me said dat reen and huimin haven reached home
she was worried sick
dun think anything will happen bahs
i wonder to people wad ahLIAN is
with image like me look like ahLIAN?
lmaos! den they mus be too naive
i seen lotsa ahLIANS and ahBENGS before
their image can be decieving kays
some guai guai one are also ahLIANS
you never know
ahLIANS doesnt really be seen by their image
hey hey! if ppl say im ahLIAN agn!
i will really get th heck outa dem
im GENTLE! (: not ahLIAN!
so i decided to do another piercing after exams
no one can stop me even if you are yellow king!
oh yahs i played maple?
unbelievable kays its still childish!
mervin was like keep SUANing me
say wad i last time say maple very childish!
yahs i never denied!
MAPLE is dammit childish
but i played bootes?
huuhooos for some reasons
雨天
1:30 AM
1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE
NUMBERS 1 to 11
2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2,
WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.
3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7,
WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO
MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
4. WRITE ANYONES NAME next to 4, 5, & 6.
5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11
6.MAKE A WISH
one/= 8
two/= 9
three/=gz
four/=xinni
five/=aqilah
six/=yixin
seven/=zhiwei
eight/= ji shi zha dan by kelly
nine/=the day you went away
ten/=you are my only love
eleven/=tian hui s.h.e
HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME
1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE THAT LIKE
YOU is found in SPACE 2
2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 is THE ONE YOU LOVE
3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7
4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4
5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.
6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR LUCKY STAR
7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3
8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7
9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND
10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE
11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER
some so true some so untrue some make me faint and scream
雨天
4:41 PM
cos now i really felt relaxed le
huuuhoooss (:
back to square one
th single life (:
today same same
but chinese lesson
more fun!
sit with gz lmaos
i keep asking him whose lynn wors
and write on his paper
hahas~ JIAN LYNN (:
but same same
he repied
know too much also useless de
hey hey! one day i will sure find out
joonkiat tell me lotsa things agn
hahas (: we are like chattin on msn nowadays
dat time my performace at taka he came also
thou th motive is not for me
but im happy dat he came!
anyway no one loves me anymore
but i got lotsa ppl dat i love (:
yixin la one i knew since pri sch
hazel she was my best pal
xinni la we always share secrets
aqilah one dat will always laufgh together with
carol i went crazy with her
huimin i love playin the nei nei game with her
szeling she is so sweet at words! BAOBEIS!
meixia she is jus like my lil sis exper wad i gone thru ; hope can council her
LAOER! i know she dote me lotsa (:
LAODA! hey hey i miss you
yongliang he is like my chat partner
zhanpeng huuuhoos! he is so crap
yijie hahas hawaii im jus frank
shiquan hey bro im there for you!
guozheng seriously hes my HAPPY FRUIT
ray i know you care but i began find you talkin RUBBISH agn
oh yahs! i love ahPOI also
she is cute! hahas
and i kissed YUEWEN today (:
i love all my darlings
and my lalas list update soon
im lazy
雨天
8:16 PM
im really touched to see my darlings there
yongliang called me
asked me to follow him and guozheng to causeway
next moment my aunt asked me accompany her
den carol called i chated with her! for carol i will smile (:
den laoda called me also! hahas!
in 15 mins i gt so many phone calls
they cared i know
den i wanted go causeway!
with laoDA den later meet my aunt!
i wan to saw yl and gz but i din get to see dem
but i saw carol! hahas! (:
reached home
play com and im happy
chat with gz for 2 hours?
hahas! thou we both take long to reply
but as usual my mood really loosen alot
i recieve lotsa counsils and i tried to think clearly
thou ive been repeating dat i think straight
but every moment of him make my heart break agn
but dis time i determined
i wun cry babe!
oh yahs his doings not my prob agn
so th flirting thing i wun care
i leak it out alrdy
no longer a hint
sorry if it hurt you but im speaking from my heart
thou you caused all my tragic
but i promised not to let you break my heart agn
im wary of you now
when i told you TELL ME YOUR BLOG
you din tell and i expected it
so it doesnt matter alrdy
kays bye darling
and maybe dis is th last time i will call you darling
it hurt rites?
but compared to mine,
still far away
you arent mine now
i learnt not to cling on you and let you go
mrLEX you are freed now
雨天
and EVERYTHING sucks!
ytd the performance
im not concentrating
dance lotsa wrong
in bus they crap jokes and iq questions
i dunno any cos im STUPID
their jokes dun seem to make me smile at all
i suddenly miss guozheng de joke
i think only his can make me laugh le
i jus felt depressed cos im SADISTIC
found out lotsa things dat i shldnt know
and really my face expression showed dat im dead le
chinese lesson sit with gz
i asked to to talk to me
thou he din talk much but i felt alot better after dat
dunno why since sec 2 whenever i talk with him
i felt alot alot more relaxed
hahas!
later when from chinese to physicS!
something sucky happen!
oh no to mention agn
aqilah see me very sad
she kissed my cheeks!
hahas! she is jus SWEET
anyway! EVERYTHING SO SUCKS NOW
雨天
12:23 AM
kays now is hint
till i couldnt take it le and gonna explode soon le
i will type evrything out and go on spreading and spreading
when someone hav stead le
and you and dat person is very close frens or i dun care wadeva relationship you are with dat person
please refrain flirting with dat person
cos you mus think of dat person de stead
even if you wanna flirt also go find others
dun find someone who is attached
i been thru dis situation before
and one word
it sucks
and i really wanna kill dat person who flirt with someone who is alrdy attched
im not talkin bout myself thou
jus suddenly link to my past
its bout someone close to me
and i get to know something i realise
maybe from th beginning i shld listen to laoDA!
i miss him now! (:
i shld hav heed his advice mahs!
and something he said is correct
its left enclosed
cos gt some relationship to do with ahem ahem!
i gaven enough hints
better do some soul searching and dun hurt your stead
or you will see me geting flown up and explding dis to whole world!
if you wan know who ask me
i wun tell who the exact person
but i will say if she or he issit YOU
雨天
8:51 PM





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they LEFT me out in the kissing game!
fucking game also!
they are my BOYFRIENDS! (: i love doreen and carol!
alot more haven upload!
oh yahs!
a guy add me from frenster
chat with me!
and was very surprised to know dat im only fifteen!
he said i looked like 18 or 19!
oh god? im mature i know thanks (:
雨天
i sleep for 2 hours only
was seriously KEEISAO by my dad
and i cant sleep
wo hao fan hao fan!
but i dunno wad i fan about
i alrdy counsil myself le!
but still very fan!
reached school felt so blah!
irritated by nothing!
tml havin spotcheck
i mus remove lotsa things
lesson time! sians sians sians!
stupid tsung! i learn something
to talk back him! (:
after school i was SERIOUSLY blah!
maths file check?
i was jus saddistic nowadays la!
SAROJINI jealous of me!
pick on me!
i very angry!
jus walk to hall for dance!
tml there is a performance at taka from 7 to 9!
hey i performing!
den jus now need go practice!
dat sarojini wasting my time!
im irritated la!
dance dat time
i felt guilty
i replaced my juniors place
sharifah and violet
they wan to dance
but too bad im alrdy in th dance le
hais! i jus felt guilty
walk back home dat time saw lex playin bball
yixin said she surprise dat i din even wan to look at him
i said i mus CONTROL not to look at him le
cos look at him for wad? also useless and pointless le!
i learn to live by myself (:
it doesnt matter if my heart wanna rebel against me alrdy
anyway!
i becomin more forgetful!
i haven pass up physics dat is due last week
a maths also!
SEM YOU HAV STUPID CHICKEN BRAIN!
雨天
kays michelle treat us dinner at pizza hut!
we are very noisy of cos!
can you imagine ard 12 teens screaming and shouting!
and we all gone crazy!
hahas! i eat most?
5 pizza and im still hungry!
cos i din eat the crust
lmaos!
later took pics in cam!
hais i jus miss all of dem!
someone in pizzahut ask for my number!
dats funny! i was on th phone!
dat carol jus told him
she hav bf le!
hahas!
and later she told me!
HEY YOUR BF IS ME!
hahas!
i forgttn i hav TWO BF! CAROL AND DOREEN!
and i kissed dem mouth to mouth agn today!
and i saw th sex pic doreen hav with carol!
hey next time my turn okays! (: hahas!
next took neoprints!
i took with huimin alone de!
and hope she wun show to zhonlin bahs
took with SHIWU and huimin!
den carol doreen and sham!
i haven took ALONE WITH carolyn!
haven took with SHIWU!
hais! AND HAZELTAN!
oh god! i will miss dem like some freakin hell!
i saw serene today!
she gain weight le!
hahas! (:
ran home later!
alot of things going thru my mind
i decided to let go le why still think so much
lmaos! im jobless le!
i dun really care bout money!
i jus miss the people there!
雨天
4:27 PM
driving me crazy and love dun worth my heart
my first relationship is not mine
second is a mistake
third is a tragic
its all driving me crazy
i took half a year to forget my first
and i admit i was playin with my second
and third i hav no comments on it
and bye im not facing dem anymore
i THINK STRAIGHT! (:
and gave up all alrdy
they seem hopeless and pointless
and i will learn how to stand strong alone
and learn how to luagh and smile from my heart
i asked yixin did i change agn
she told me every year i hav different image
sec 1 i was acting like a DA XIAO JIE!
of cos very petty! ....
sec 2 i was like very sociable
interact and communicate around
now sec 3
become much more stubborn and hot tempered
xin told me dat i become more straightforward and open
yahs dats true
i become much much much more
open straightfoward and hot tempered
but th fact is im always hot tempered and impatient
and dat it become worst?
lmaos! she say ppl dat dunno me see th way i shout and talk will tot dat i gt attitude prob! hey oh god!
im jus being frank and straightforward la!
if not hide evrything inside will die!
compared to my colleges!
im th most GUAI de!
kays forget it
im happy with myself can le (:
雨天
1:20 PM
morning overslept
late for work agn
doreen eyes swollen
she cried cos of family probs
i din ask wad happen
but know abit abit
my eyes swollen too
carol said my eyes is ALWAYS swollen
yahs true it is always swollen nowadays
i did something stupid agn!
my shirt was tuck out
den i closed the counter
my shirt gt stucked inside
i cant move away unless i took off my clothes
lmaos!
last day
i missed everyone
start with managers bahs!
serene! my EX STALL MANAGER!
she dote much on me!
and treat me lotsa free drinks and food la
i miss her truthfylly
when she left
i din even get to see her
hais! god i MISS her!
derrick! HE LOVES laming!
thou his face like shit wanna bash him so much
but truthfully!
he is dammit a joker!
and his big tummy!
i haven get to try wads inside!
sham! he is a good listener!
oh god! sham is dammit gentle when come to girls!
he named me BABOO!
cos dat time i get sunburn very red!
and my hair like monkey all stand up!
lmaos!
angelia! she is really tuutuu de!
hahas! very slow and strict!
but her actions really make me laugh like hell!
she act like a blur sotong!
lmaos! and her lame jokes cant be anywhere lamer!
margaret! I CALLED HER MARIE!
she is my mother?
yahs she nag like one!
and first day i see her!
she is dammit guailan and fierce!
but she is one of the nicest managers!
and she treat me strawberry sundae!
huuuhooos! (:
michelle! truthfully i dun like her
she is th worst manager ever
and i hav no comments on her
jessica! i will miss her SCARY EYES!
and sharp nose! which look like a witch!
and once she freak me of by scaring me wth her EVIL laughters!
ahYORK! she is a old auntie!
but i dunno shes good at acting cute! lmaos!
we were playin if the bagala! will catch me or huimin first!
lmaos!!!!!
start with my dears le!
HUIMIN! she is th first person dat talk to me on th first day of work!
and i love her! my jie?
but we act like some 3 year kiddo whenever i was with her!
we imitate how michelle ride th bike!
and raced see who run back to th stall when going dumpster!
and we laughed at those bagalas!
and said they are catching us le!
lmaos! i miss her like some fuckin hell
remembered she quarreled alot of times with margaret cos of me!
hahas! and scolded all those fucking cb words!
CAROLNYE! she saw me working at my first day
lmaos! dat time i was so blur sotong!
and day by day i become her BITCH!
hahas! now her babe!
thou she is fierce sometime!
but she is KIND! (:
someone dat gave me good advices whenever im lost
hahas! we even hav the BAND!
lmaos! not sex BAND of cos!
and i KISSED HER before!
DOREEN! dat so small sized girl!
huuuhooos! so noisy so talkative!
hahas! she often make me laugh like some freaking hell!
and she is dammit straighfoward!
and i make her my BOYFREN!
hahas! i gonna miss her freak voice alot!
hahas! dats lame! (:
SHAFIQ~! hes my husband!
hahas! he dammit innocent! 17 dis year!
and he is very kind!
and th only guy working dere! hahas!
i dunno wad else to say and who to say le
my mind so blank!
and im anounced JOBLESS!
KAYS EVRYONE in mac! BYE!
yesterday nite
cant sleep
i sms guozheng!
hahas! i cant sleep so decided to FAN you!
hahas! lame!
meixiangdao! he replied next morning!
hahas! funy la him!
im in th mood DAT CANT BE anyymore down anymore!
i miss dem!
hahas! (:
wo SHIYE le!
ye SHILIAN le!
haven do homework!
im tired of dem!
thanks poixin for advice also
thou i dunno who you referin to la
but really thanks!
im tired le
抓不到有你的未来
我想离开可是我还期待
被时间活埋从盛开到腐坏
好像缺了一块再拼不回来
going for dental appointment later
maybe by june
i will HAV BRACES (:
雨天
1:59 AM
without affecting others
dis few weeks was sendin lotsa stupid sms to 933
im jus bored
and really i said wadeva i wan there
lmaos!
loving someone doesnt matter if we get hurt
cos love is blind and
even we know dat the route we are taking hav no hope or future
we dun mind going deeper
i wonder why love is so silly
inspire from meixia de blog
i believe she is the only one dat can compare foolishness with me bahs
stupid ass ME!
yahs but im more stupid!
realise dat i hurt lotsa ppl without realising
how many ppl i rejected past few weeks
more than five?
lmaos! all from other school
but truthfully they arent serious
i saw braden and evon
they so cute and sweet!
lmaos! (:
i wan JIE DI LIAN also la! hahas!
nvm i go find sec 1! lmaos!
if i hav a choice
i wonder will i take th same route
i guess i know
i really really know
th answer kept inside
can i choose to give up?
after so many weeks of acting
i forgotten how to laugh
雨天
1:44 PM
muscle tear forget it
cb i did win enough le
quite happy with it
thou is second in level ; fifth in division
zhanpeng was like teasing me and gz agn!
get used to it since sec2
forget it
and go eat dinner
no mood nahs
i hav no logic or iq
i understand ignore all those
today fuck like hell
in the morning need to fan so much things
dammit ass work crush with my dance agn!
cb ass man!
i called my dad
he scolded me for dunno wad ass agn la
kays everythin i do is wrong la
den i called manager
say i cant work today
gt another scolding!
cb! den she hang up without tellin me if i can dun go or not
forget it!
she always bu shaung me de!
den i jus heck care dun go
as i resigning this week le!
i called back my dad
and get another scolding!
say wad i obby let manager scold!
fuck sias!
later do alot of housework!
wash wash and wash!
dad call agn!
another scolding!
kays im gettin used so much to it le!
forget all those!
everything i do!
jus admit im wrong!
den nothing will happen!
from today onwards i will blog ALL THE FACTS IN MY BLOG!
ytd th dinner kays im happy to see him!
i tried avoid eye contact with him!
thou it sucks! lmaos! kays bye!
雨天
9:09 PM
standion broad jump 204
sit and reach 57
new goal~ shuttle run 9.5 , sit and reach 60, standing broad jump 220 (:
give short summary
IM tired
today pe lesson
running? im panting
dun think tml will win cross country le
my muscle tear
oh shit hell
anyway will try
thank god dat meanses din come
jus scare it come tml
please dun it will kill
not going with xin and hazel
but with someone else
dun think dat much
its xinni and zhikun
and i guess
since long
we haven spend time together le
huuhooos
bought the piggy pencil box
and a water bottle le (:
a great finally
saw zhiwei in causeway
we both like very weird never talk
den i hit his bag
hazel laugh like hell
.....
anyway i did act normal
cos i tried and forced myself too
and i find it pretty easy afterall
SEM YOU RAWKS! COS YOU DID IT (:
anyway tml i will try my very best for cross country
cos one promise i make few weeks ago
and i gonna give away de medal if i get to win
without de motivation i wun win...
... i talk till i really gonna win liddat lmaos!
anyway few days ago my dad chat with me
but i dun hav th time to blog with my com spoilt
he hinted me dat
he dun care if i hav a bf or not
jus dat i studied properly can le
and he even asked me to bring dat guy home
... when he asked me if he gt bully me
i was like "erm nope"
... i forget im single now
if only he talk to me bout it one month ago
things wun be th same as now
how stupid is it
kays maybe its all fated
anyway dats a nice song before
the another version of di yi ci ai de ren
lmaos!
"The Day You Went Away"
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
雨天
9:51 PM
overslept
never go school
truthfully dun wan go also la
later went school for napfa
sucks? make me feel hot la!
anyway im proud (:
shuttle run 9.73 ( deproved )
sit and reach 52.5 (improved by 2.5 cm )
standing broad jump 180 ( improved by 5 cm )
incline pull up 42 ( improved by 4 )
sit up 50 ( huuuhooos i did cheat )
2.4 13.42 i think ( deproved agn )
huuuhhooos! but i get full 30 marks agn! applause (:
i did somthing stupid agn!
kays not to mention
make me feel silly!
go causeway with laoer wanying and van!
hahas! saw the guy gang
they lame
later saw him sms laoer!
make me felt weird confused strange
huuuhoos! i saw guozheng!
i so happpy!
he mus hav miss me today!
everyone does!
i know aqilah and hawaii miss me!
hahas! (:
i lost my atm card!
asshole!
think drop in somewhere le!
hey sem! when can you den not be BLUR SOTONG!
asshole! stupid crap!
i no cash with me!
i wonder how can i survive with my atm card!
went home after dat!
was dammit fucking dulan with my com! it was spoilt!
I WENT MY COUSIN HOUSE!
blogging now!
anyway i gave him my diary
i felt stupid!
den realise my laoer also once did dat
i dun wan it anymore since i cant continue it
jus pass it to him
whether he wan throw it away or keep it
arhs! i dunno la!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
SEM YOU SUCKS!
truthfully im waiting
one day i hope
you will return me my diary
and asked me to continue our story
but it seem impossible already
雨天
6:22 PM
im JEALOUS!
doreen was sweet talkin with her cq!
heyhey! i was like
I JUS SHILIAN lehs!
hahas! den i make her my BF!
stupid ass sunburn!
i dun believe a 15 min run from civic to 888 can cause me a SEVERE sunburn!
wad the fuck?
face red!
den cross country become CHAO TA!
today was sucks!
hahas carol was like VERY FIERCE!
i thought i caused her to feel irrtated!
i keep asking doreen issit me
den doreen say!
see your gong gong face you think you will irritated her mehs?
heyhey! i gt gong gong face? lmaos!
i dunno! hahas! sometimes
im too blur till i dunno i irritated someone!
lmaos! and i dun hav gong gong face okays! hahas!
im going causeway to get something important liaos!
kays bye~
雨天
11:33 PM
another tired day
tml also same
no time do homework
same same
every saturday dat zhonglin will go mac find me
wad the fuck!
i said alrdy not interested in him
hahas! im more interested in
shuaiGES!
RICH GUY!
BIG COMPANIES!
huuuhooos! (:
i told him i jus shilian!
and he say he know who is zhiwei!
.... wad the fuck
he even know who is guozheng!
kays their pri school same
oh yahs! surprised surprised!
i saw SAM TAN KENG HO!
huuuhooos! surprised i still remember his name!
hahas~ (:
he is my first crush la!
in woodgrove pri school!
same same infront of him
i keep doing the wrong things!
i knock down the boxes and fall onto my head agn
i take ice spill all over the places
i forget all my product
den give the wrong change!
lmaos! i dun think he remember me!
and oih yahs!
his voice change
huuhooos! sexy voice (:
hahas! truthfully i nearly forget there is such person call sam!
hahas! until i saw him today!
after work i go admirirty with CAROL!
bought a tote for 50 dollar?
hahas! a bag!
huuuhoos! new bag! (:
we chat alot
want to fool TAN XINYI!
she sucks! hahas! (:
i love huimin!
we are talking bout gnei gnei!
hahas! those bungala!
gneignei! wan catch us lo!
huuuuhooos!
anyway! we findin someon to pose as xinyi bf!
wan to fool her!
huuuhooos!
me and carol wan find lex at first!
but dun think he will wan to lame with us!
hahas! forget it!
find others to fool around!
huuuhooos!
i wan to test if he know lex anot!
i was telling her!
hey hey!
i once hav a very shuai BF!
you know who anot!
but dun think she know la!
hahas! stupid!
carol and i was chattin on the way
kays it is all excuses?
is it time for me to wake up?
hais i dunno much
can i dun choose to know dat much
at least for the time being
let me live in dis beautiful fantasy
love is jus a chemical reaction
it fade so fast in his liddat
maybe dats a new good beginning also
let us start afresh to a new chapter in our frenship (:
雨天
no one accompany me for breakfast
i called someone but is busy
den forget it i skipped it as always
later lunch dad bring me go eat!
oh god! rice? so many!
usually i will eat 3 plates
but dis time cant even finish one!
and i vomit out after i reach home!
de car was dammit fucking giddy!
at 3 go for work le!
den manager ask me go civic take stuffs!
i reached civic!
huuuuhooos! surprised!
th box so big and heavy and still gt one big bag!
hey ass MICHELLE!
i not superwoman!
how take all stuffs!
lucky jon was there!
hahas! he helped me take back to 888 usin his bike!
i ran back there under th hot sun!
hey hey! later i was sunburned!
wad the fuck! my face all red!
at working place saw lihui!
huuuhooos! she so short like me!
mei xiang dao i jus punch out le she leave le!
hahas! (: stupid ultraman!
o7 o4 o6
a special day
is my special day
threetwodays
huuuhooos! i felt stupid
remember all those over incident
kays stop all imagination
reach home i watched cyn concert dvd ytd!
omg! she cried when seeing WO HUI HAO HAO DE!
kays! thanks to the fucking breakup with FANG ZHIWEI!
he one leg step two boat!
oh yahs i detest and look down at dis type of guys!
huuuhooos! wo hui hao hao de!
wo shi xiang zhe ni
yi zhi xiang zhe ni
ni zai wo xin li
bian cheng le mi mi
yao ge ni yuan fang de zhu fu
wo zhi dao ta ku ku de
i sms to aL
huuuhooos!
hey ass! i look down on you!
let her treat you so good without any reasons
why mus act till so mysterious?
anyway you sucks! kays bye!
he repied!
anyway i dun give a damn shit if you cared or not
its her choice and so wad its gonna be?
i didnt act so mysterious
i jus live my own way
if you not happy jus freaking bear with it
if not tell your bf lex!
one more thing get outa of th fucking class while i doing duty!
omGOD! he sucks to the bloody core!
i look down and detest him la!
anwyay he think so wad so big deal bout th
COUNCILLOR BADGE!
the teacher mus be blind to choose him as a councillor!
and i mus be blind to be with him and for 1 year plus!
and waited for him after the breakup for 6 months!
and most importantly is we breakup on my bdae!
oh god! he sucks to the fucking core!
kays is i dun wan him de!
is i initiated the breakup!
not him kays! he still so big for wad!
wads so big bout councillor
except for his LANJIAO big den still gt wad fucking hell!
oh yahs! angel not mine anymore!
i dun wan her also le la!
she not my wife!
cos she gt another new husband le!
FUCK! SERIOUSLY IM PRETTY JEALOUS AND ANGRY!
she choose him over me for lotsa times!
forget it! i alrdy choose to give her up long ago!
when dat jerk step two boat but she din tell me!
till now? they together? huuuhoos! i dunno!
but 80% is they together le!
fucking cb!i hate HTAY AUNG LATT LA!
he is a dammit ass jerk!
i wonder why angel like him!
yahs ANGEL LIKE HIM!
FUCKER! SUCKER ASS WITH YOUR HEAD!
huuhoooS! and i dun hav BF KAYS!
i jus SHILIAN! you sucks like some fucking hell!
DAT JERK ONLY KNOW HOW TO TOY WITH OTHERS FEELING!
i decided! to TOY back with him!
wait for it! ASS!
雨天
11:11 PM
not to mention!
all wil laugh till ass spilt like wad hazel do!
sexuality lesson?
it was as bored!
but it make me realise
its really better to be frens
thou he once said if there true frenship
it will not be lost after a breakup
sound so fake so unreal
huuuhooos!
today winifred never come to school!
means no one sitting with guozheng!
i quickly move my bag beside him!
huuuhooos! of cos he wan chase me away!
i too fan! irritate him alot!
zp pass me sweet!
the red one~ sucks!
smelly taste
i phew it out back to th sweet wrapper!
huuuhooos! and wrap it back nicely!
the greeen one!
smell like perfume! weird!
i also phew it out to th sweet wrapper!
and wrap it nicely!
huuuuhoos!
guozheng lookin at me with th disgusted face!
huuuhooos? hahas! not xiguan bahs!
later lex wan sweet!
i asked him if he wan the ones i phew it back!
hahas! gave me the disgusted fae agn!
huuhhhoos! abit gross bahs!
but the taste really sucks!
came to realise my post nowadays all gt guozheng!
heyhey! gone hidden intentions! huuhhooos!
later after school
no modern!
went causeway with szeling and yixin!
huuhooos!hahas! eat lotsa things!
and window shop agn!
hahas! i wan buy lotsa things!
UPDATE WISHLIST! huuuhooos! (:
later went mos!
eat agn! crap there!
and i took pics!
with those gross head!
hahas! (:
pins so terrible!
simply gross
lion head!
we went foolin ard agn!
huuhoos!
ghost hands!
tupid szeling and yixin!
we are bad gundus!
nice shadow!
my hair arent dat bad bahs!
huuuhooos! chat with winifred!
she ask me bout my blog!
hahas! think somethin to do wirth guozheng!
edited version! using my own language to type out la
winifred : sem you like gz huhs?
sem : no la gross
winifred : you sure? you see him de eye like very wad and i think he like you!
sem : where gt wors?
winifred : sometime i ask him bout you he reply dat time sound like he like you
sem : ... wad you ask?
winifred : i told him dat you keep lookin at him in class and ask how he think of you
sem : den wad he say wors? irritating! veyr fan! noisy!?
winifred : yahs! hahas but i still think he like you
sem : erxin!
winifred : but in ur blog. when girl interested in guys, they will write good things bout dem
sem : hahas i did it to spike someone nias!
winifred : oh understand
I TAKE OFF DIS PART! ~ ENCLOSED! ~
sem : den if guozheng still say anything bout me mus tell me kays!
winifred : ok i will
sem : i buay tahan he keep sayin me fan!
winifred : hahas! sometimes a guy like a girl is liddat one!
sem : oh my god!
so impossible!
everyone know me and guozheng was quarrelin since sec 1 !
huuhooos! hahas! dun care so much le!
oh yahs i gave gz th frenship band!
see! is frenship band!
not sex band or love band!
i found dis pic on frenster so cute!
oh yahs! forget to say!
im attached alrdy!
with mrREYES from spain!
hhuuuhooos!
雨天
7:53 PM
时间的海多深
你和我的心明明曾经是相爱的
是否你还听得到
我呼喊你的声音
为何我有种靠不近你的心情
越来越不能够相信
生命之中没有你
好像天国没有美丽的嫁衣
为什么在我的眼睛
总有预感将要下雨
就算走在人群里也觉得好孤寂
为什么在你的眼睛
我看不到你的疼惜
难道爱已融化在时间里
有谁能够告诉我
爱的天国多远
你和我的梦是否可能会实现
为什么相爱的原因
随着你转身的离去
爱的天国已遥不可及
雨天
PE so fun la!
shuttle run! huuuhoos!
deprove agn 9.81 second!
i seem slower as time goes by!
incline pull up! hey hye 39 (:
long jump huuuhooos rawks too also la!
hahas! im jus in love with RUNNING!
later played captain ball!
hooohhoos! netball jus beside!
i always go into netball dat side and play!
guozheng so cute! he netball de go into captain ball also!
later went back class!
me and aqilah went crazy!
we saw rahda! den she shouted HEY MR RAHDA!
later i shouts! HOOOHOOOS! WE ARE OUTSTANDING!
we went laughing and jumping back!
hahas! funfun!
hais jus now go causeway but dunno wad duck for ancestor de!
very heavy like hell!
spend 70 dollar plus on CDS!
hooohooos! finally bou cyn de album and LANGMANMANWU!
huuuhooos! wun be bored anymore (:
雨天
8:57 PM
You value the special bond love can create and are likely to seek out someone who cherishes that deep connection too. Whether single or in a relationship, you're a compassionate person who cares about others. This strong people-sense makes you more skilled than most at understanding individuals' differences and reading others' moods. Above all, you're looking for a steadfast, loyal partner who you can trust to stand by you in good times and bad!
hahas! i love takin dem la! cos im jus bored!
heyhey! i dun like com!
hurt my eye more! my eye is very PAINFUL!
雨天
hahas! fun fun fun! so huuuhooo~ huhs!
but i felt so blah cos of my hair also la!
20 pins! heavy la! lmaos!
oh yahs! AQILAH KISSED ME TODAY!
so huuuhooo~ huhs! make me feel so bling blong!
hahas! den jiayu was like jealous!
den me and aqilah together kissed her checks!
huuuhooo~ we all so bling blong! hahas! fun fun!
dun undersatnd my language?
means long time never crazy with me le!
shld be i long time never crazy le!
huuuhooos~ mean cute!
feel so blah means feel so fan!
bling blong means very enthu and happy!
tututuchopchop means fast fast
hahas! fun fun!
my eyes both swollen!
like i cry like hell liddat!
but i din cry wors!
infection sucks!
hope my eye tututuchopchop cure lahs!
i wan my lalas bring me see doctor!
any of dem also can!
will make me go bling blong agn!
today at canteen dat time
honghock ask me bout me and guozheng!
oh god! jiayu told me!
dat gz like me in sec 2 and i like gz dat time also!
she say is kimsiong say de!
oh god! wad kinda moomoo~ is dat!
moomoo means bullshit la!
hey hey! honghock ask me if gz send me home ytd issit?
i say! hey hey! dun moomoo~ la! we jus shun lu only!
hahas! DATS TRUTH!
dun anyhow say bout me and him le!
i jus shilian okays!
hahas! gz wil shy de! (:
anyway! modern dat time!
chat with qianling bout him! hahas!
i felt so happy!
when mention bout the past!
hahas! i felt bling blong suddenly!
gone crazy and high agn!
dat time we are once HAPPY before
and its enough for my to HAPPY reminise-ing!
SEM, ME COLD LE!
heyhey! sounds like
SEMI COLON! (:
yl told me
one day me and gz will be together!
he and his moomoo~ guessing agn!
i asked him why!
he said his sixth sense?
lmaos! impossible la! (:
雨天
6:06 PM
hahas! seriously im touched la!
from de incident i really came to realise
i gt lotsa true frens!
i very very touched! hahas!
some special de will know who they are
but some really gave me big surprises!
BRADEN! hey hey! i tot you say you coming over is really joking de! mei xiang dao you really go my stall find me! thanks thanks! hahas!
guozheng and zhanpeng!
you guys pei me de whole day today!
thanks thanks! de chinese project become chat session le!
den later go kfc eat? hahas!
they love laming ard!
thou i dun understand their secrets!
something hiding behind me!
say bout gz LOVE LOVE! but i dunno who issit!
hahas! zp gave me lotsa hints dat its me!
but i know it wasnt!
they jus playin and laming ard nias!
they send me home later?
hahas! hey hey! i was wondering i was not a kiddo le!
send me home? wtf?
is they on the same way also bahs!
anyway im jus touched! (:
anyway i straighten lotsa thinking
i cant do anything if he continue avoiding and hiding!
hahas! i dun care liao le la!
it doesnt matter anymore
eye infection gettin more serious
i lazy take out contacts and see doc
雨天
11:25 AM
hazel told me bout another guy wan my number
oh god please its the fifth time dis week
tired of guys cos they sucks!
i went to meet my mum later on
i haven seen her for 3 months alrdy
dis long three months i survive as i gt my :best fren: with me
but the rest of the days
i mus survive alone den!
lmaos! she hav become prettier!
hahas! den my aunt said dat i looked like my mum!
means i become prettier too?
lmaos! hahas! truthfully i miss her la!
but i wun say it out thou
the hair stylist so pro!
finish my hair in 15 mins time!
hahas! its spike! hoohhooo~!
i bet my frens will say it look gross!
cos i find myself gross too!
but when i look and look more!
i find it so cute huhs! lmaos!
reach home later
anotner scolding from my dad
im getting used to his scoldings
hahas! he threw my medicine dat i went for doctor previous time on the floor
the cough syrup which is make of glass break!
i never ate any medicine at all
they make me more bitter and gross
the cough syrup all leaked out
and the glass all on the floor!
aPHEW! i smelled the sarsi flavoured medicine!
lucky i din take the medicine huhs! hahas!
i cleaned up the mess agn! those glass give me a hard time huhs!
i nearly cut my hand
even if i do
no one will care
my dad later told me agn
bout the incident happen 2 weeks ago
he said he was once a gangster
kays kays i knew dat
and ur tatoos arent dat BIG DEAL thou they are BIG!
he told me not to fool around outside
or he will kill and beat up those ppl
of cos hes talking bout my bf
hahas! i dunno if i hav one now
i jus listen and i dun care
he said everything he did is for our own good
i understand but he din realise he did the wrong way
wad he gave is jus our physically needs not emotional needs
and i bet no one can ever gave me those emotional needs agn
cos im waiting
he dunno dat his actions two weeks ago
indirect smashed my heart
and my life and love is all gone
the everyday of facing and seeing him is making me sick
my dad really remind me of lotsa things
but its all gone
i din write my diary anymore
i dunno how to continue without him
like i dunno how to continue my life
雨天


