Okay first time I feel my life have really some wishes I want to fulfil!
hahahas Cause' I know those wishes will let me feel happy?! ahahs
1) I wan my hair to grow!
Hahhas I wan back my long hair!
I did not regret cutting short actually.
Its just that I think long hair make me hotter!
With short hair I look like kiddo! and I hate being a kiddo!
And yes I wan be hot! cool!
Most probably I gonna perm or rebond and buy a curler for temporary perms!
This can be fulfil in a year time!
2)I wan go clubbing!
hahhas thats my second wish! clubbing?! well I dont wan go underage club!
cause I know it wont be fun! hahahs and my first stop at clubbing will be!
ST JAMES POWER STATION!
Okay I wan go club jus to try out new things?! yeahs and have fun!
cool! hahahs wait till Im 18, I go fulfil my 2nd wish! XD
3)I wan find a lesbian gf!
Well This is not because I like girls! thus gf please dont flee away from me!
hahahs I jus wanna try! cool! not having sex with a girl okays.
I wanna try the feeling of being les!
I wanna know why ppl wan to be les instead of having a bf!
Well I know how sucky guys are but I still dont know how good a girl can be!
Cool! Thats why I always think being a guy is better than being a girl!
Being a guy have lesser chances to get hurt ahhahas!
And having a gf is more enjoyable than having a bf! I wan be guy!
4)I wan have a foreign bf!
Well regardless of americans or wad!
hahas but I have portugal guys in mind! hahahs
They look like soccer player XD and they are fit and tall and strong!
hahahahas well and I know they prefer perm-ed hair!
thus I gonna perm or get a temporary curler! hahahhas
Above th 2,3,4 wishes are those that I never tried before!
hmmmm, They are just for thrill!
cause I know I will never be serious in th two relationship.
hahhas I mean th lesbian and foreign bf!
wad is not serious to me?! Its a defination that I know one day it will end
Thus I wont put in more than 50% into it! hahas
AND I KNOW I NOT GONNA LET MYSELF GET HURT IN IT!
well I will tell them in th first place, I just getting an experience.
Hmmm I really think very hard before typing this out.
5) Last wish! I wanna be a bridemaid.
ahhahas actually I wanna witness my frens marriage!
hahahs I DONT WAN BE A BRIDE. I rather be a bridemaid!
Being a bridemaid shares th happiness of th marriage/wedding.
But being a bride need to undergo th harshness and cruelness of a marriage.
A beautiful wedding last only a day, but a marriage last forever.
Well Im not going to bet my whole life into marriage, it last forever.
I have no ability to bet.
In my mind there is no thought of marriage, no thought of commitment, thats why I have no thought of relationships.
hahas thus I rather be a bridemaid.
I wan be a bridemaid! xD
Yupp there are my wishes! hahahs I no longer hope for stupid and impossible wishes like finding someone to be with me forever!
no more! well they are all lies de!
In this world, there's no one that will be with you forever!
They will leave one day when you need them so much.
I will not let myself cultivate the habit of relying someone again!
I will not let myself feel so sucky when I lost someone again.
Cause I will not let myself have a chance to have someone.
and I will not put in 100% into someone again. ahahahas!
cause all 100% is for myself!
Actually in th past, my heart is split into lotsa parts.
25% for frens, 25% for family, 40% for love, 10% for myself!
Well Im not that stupid anymore! no more for love!
they are useless! cause, its all wast of my time!
Why I put love above family? sucky! and above frens as well? wtf?!
New allocation! no more love! no more for my horoscope.
(cause my horoscope, leo, represent love. sucky.)
35% for family, 30% for frens, 30% for myself, 5% for others!
others means those that are not frens not family not love!
LOL! no more for love! haahhahahhahahs! love=hate!
And I will put in 100% for that 30% love for myself.
I must love myself, I will love myself. This is only th start.
I believe I will show more cruelity towards love.
even if I have feelings for anyone, no matter how strong,
I know I can stop them! hahas
Cause I can choose to love. but I choose not to.