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I turn off the time to wake up before the alarm clock ressounds
I don't know why but I can already remember you
I wonder if, before I know it, I'll forget even the miracle of being able to meet you for one hundred minutes
Will I end up forgetting even that I've forgotten?

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
I'm locking up those days that are still a bit warm

Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me
We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream's fate
I couldn't say it by the ticket barrier, I wanted to say
that I feel "Thank you" are maybe words much sadder than "goodbye"

Heavenly days, I wonder if I could smile properly
At the scene of our last kiss, I couldn't even grasp your shivering hands, not even my tears fell, ah
Now that it's too late, they overflow when I'm alone

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
Even if I stretch out my hands, you're not here anymore
I'll walk on under a new light

she gna fly alone
Monday, June 30, 2008
6:25 PM

she gna fly alone. thats th phrase i've been putting in msn for quite a period of time. hahas fly. I remb in one of my blogskins i typed, "one day i'll grow and learn to fly". hahas i think i've grown alot.

i can be independent now!(most of th time) so i can fly alone. LOL. as long as unexpected things like sudden CHOP-OFF hair or last min work dont happen, i can still handle everything myself lo!

and im so super duper proud of my hunks. cause all of us are very INDEPENDENT! we chose different polys you know~ nd not affected by fren's choices! we are like so determined to pursue wad we like even thou we know we gna be in a brand new unfamiliar environment. damn im so proud.

sometimes when i have emotions breakdown, i will tend to suspect others. like im always proud of them and having them as my closest hunks. but i will start thinking if they are proud of me? hahas emo! dont care. cause its like once in a while then will think of such things.

its jacq bdae today! and allie baked cheese cake and xuan baked cupcakes. i went ard feeding whoever i saw with cupcakes cause everyone is like NO NO NO CHOCO PLEASE SICK OF IT! den there's one particular very lazy bum that say he's too lazy to use his hand and open his mouth so big for me! its like so unexpected! omg! hope he dont do this to everyone he knows! sad but happy (:

and FOM! my grp gt th highest AVERAGE MARKS! like sooo waaa HURRAY LO~! this is th most unexpected things ever! we are like 10x slacker than everyone elses in th class lo! and everyone expected my grp to fail cause we failed th last presentation! hahas my hard work not wasted! omg thus i really feel like crying! okays, i must say i put in alot effort in that fom althou its all last minute! well IM SO SO SO TOUCHED!

well, i think i need to clarify something impt with my fren. cause you're very impt to me.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

photoshoot

Sunday, June 29, 2008
9:31 AM

Im preparing for a photoshoot later! so if it's pretty i shall post it up here laa! but if it's not i shall burn burn burn! so well, wish me good luck people! i'll try my best even thou its not my assignment or not evn my problem! as long as this is WORK, i think i've th responsible to perfect it.

one more thing, im done with cscc blogskin! wwell, i dont tink irs pretty at all! photos given are so limited! and i gt no time to remake another for better results! shit! ehhh, Hmmmm i shall do one more another time!

http://cscctest1.blogspot.com

This is th blogskin i made. well, near to 2 years w/o touching blogskin, i feel so distanted from it. but at least PR give me a chance or maybe an excuse to go on with blogskins. well i really intended to quit but now, it failed laa of cause.

and CD that report! I completed on friday? yea. but haven do the third round of editing yet! cause my starting gt th impact, however behind started being a lil too rushy and less impressive! so i shall edit it tonight!

SEM JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! if wan do, do it perfectly. CD is th module you definitely must A! so there's no excuse for you to slack! uunderstand?
ehhh feel so weird talking to myself. ahhhh~

okays. i go curl my hair now. see ya.

p.s. you are just like a rhythmical euphony which i have totally no control in it.

EDITED.

Photoshoot was alright. but me and xin really need to overcome th height like ard 4-5 storey high. and below th railways are like RIVER?! ehh shit? and its like so warm and im now tanned. Hmmm, but i enjoyed it. shall post th photos next time.

Okays i curl my hair today!
and it gna be th last time i curl until few months later!
cause cause cause cause cause

I CUT MY HAIR

AND ITS NOW SO BLOODY SHORT

AND I CRIED FOR ONE HOUR.

okays as always. hair is my everything. if you threaten to cut it, i wIll snap your wadever off. regardless guy or girl, whoever touches my hair SHALL DIE!
WALAO MY HAIR IS SHORT. and i cant stop crying! oh hell, i dont wna go school tml.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

happy bdae hengkhit!

Thursday, June 26, 2008
11:27 PM

lalalas! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY HENGKHIT!

hahahhas (: hope you have fun today!

well, its hengkhit 17th bdae!

and it all started with ytd night calling people out for gathering! den me jingxue allie started crapping and play random in one convo laa! okays, its me who started th random! sorry! (: hahahhhas. we played role play and role play and role play! it's super fun okays! as usual th people in our class really can make top randomness number one!

SEMANTHA ACTING : SHAN
ALLIE ACTING : SHERYL, SHAN'S GF!
JINGXUE ACTING : IMAGINARY 3RD PARTY (HER NAME IS PURPLE, NAMED BY SEM)

semantha: HONEYYY, PASTA MANIA?
semantha: WE CAN SUCK TH NOODLE TGT YOU ONE SIDE I ONE SIDE
Allie: DONT WANT LAH.. PIZZA HUT ALSO HAVE WHAT
semantha: OKOK. AS LONG AS WE CAN SHARE, IM WILLING TO DO ANYTHINGGGG
JingXue: halo eii you shan
Allie: HELLO, WHO ARE YOU?
semantha: OHHH hello, do i know you?
JingXue: u forget mi liao ar
semantha: WHO ARE YOU? I TOUCH YOU BEFORE?
Allie: Shan, who is that?
JingXue: how can?? how u dun noe
semantha: ERMM, I DONT KNOW sheryl. MAYBE SHE TOUCH ME BEFORE
Allie: Ohmygod, how can you touch my shan?
JingXue: eii tat 1 ur gal frend ar
semantha: YEAH, SHE'S MY LIFE. MY EVERYTHING
JingXue: no wonder u say u dun noe me la... aiyo..
Allie: So... who are you?
JingXue: if u r the first den i m his second lor
semantha: HONEY DONT LISTEN TO HIM
semantha: HER I MEAN
Allie: SHAN!
semantha: YA
Allie: You denied too late who is she?
semantha: DONT YOU BELIVE ME
JingXue: dear dear , remeber our promise?
Allie: How am I supposed to believe you under such circumstances?
semantha: YOU KNOW sheryl, I WILL ONLY TOUCH YOUUU, I WONT TOUCH OTHERS! BUT OTHERS MAY TOUCH ME
Allie: Bet: Didnt she touch you before? Means you two were intimate before.
Allie: *starts sobbing*
JingXue: so i m still waiting..still waiting for u
Allie: WHAT PROMISE?
semantha:YOU WAITING FOR ME? YOU RUN AWAY WITH TWO OTHERS GUY LAST MONTH! YOU STILL SAY YOU WAITING FOR ME! TWO GUY SOMEMORE. WHEN IM HOTTER THAN TH TWO GUY !
JingXue: how can u like that say... its very hurting...
Allie: SHAN! SO YOU DO KNOW HER!
semantha: OPPS OMG I LEAK OUT
Allie: HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME?
JingXue: sobs*
Allie: HOW? WHY? SHAN?! ANSWER ME!
semantha: WAIT WHY AM I ACTING TH BAD GUY
JingXue: just tell her our relationship ..
semantha: OKAYS, ALLIE, YOU 'RE MY LIFE
semantha: WAIT IS SHERYL
semantha: SHERYL , YOU ARE MY LIFE BUT SHE'S ALL I WAN IN BED
Allie: Shan.... I'm..too disappointed in you. we...this..it wont work out.
semantha: BUT IF YOU LET ME TRY YOU IN BED I WILL THROW HER AWAY
Allie: not after...her appearance, not after what you just admitted.
JingXue: shan how can u say that ? so thats wad u have been thinking
Allie: HOW CAN YOU DO THAT?
semantha: EHH I SAY THAT TO DITCH HER ONLY MA YOU STUPID AHH DONT UNDERSTAND ISSIT
Allie: HOW DO YOU THINK I WILL FEEL KNOWING YOU'VE BEEN TO BED WITH .... oh.
JingXue: i was WRONG ABOUT u
Allie: We wont work out. Not anymore. Let's ... stop seeign each other
semantha: SHERYLL AND PURPLEEE , I LOVE YOUUU ! DONT YOU TWO LEAVE MEEEE
Allie: Purple, Shan's not worth it. let's leave.
semantha: I PROMISED I WILL NOT LET YOU TWO KNOW BOUT EACH OTHER AGAIN
JingXue: "runs away
Allie: -left-

TODAY OUTING! we went jurong entertainment center! so i have fun! playing arcade, playing pool, taking neoprints! i enjoyed everything and i dont know why! BUT NEOPRINTS IS TH BEST!

well, you know, it's being so long since i laugh till so deadly. even thou we dint chat much! but since last nite, i laughed till my tummy muscle harden you know! at least im smiling, yea at least im happy (: so i think it's worth of everything i let go! hahhhas

and people! i let go of seto alrdy! hahhahas! but of cause i dint annouce to th whole world. i think my behavior tell th truth alrdy! hahahahhas no more seto (: no particular reason! just that w/o him, i can fly better! nd i dont know him at all lo! so how can i actually like a stranger! hahhahs

I will accept whatever that comes but live with it even if you dont come. cause if we're meant to be, den there should be no worries. if we're not, i'll just let it be.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

love triangle

Tuesday, June 24, 2008
6:28 PM

Im never gna get into love triangles again. nd i swear.
so it's time to forsake everything, time to fly alone.

fly alone, i gna fly alone.
nd keep all my frens in my heart.

Im not gna to like you, neither will i have a chance to hurt you.
trust me, i can do it, as always.

study time, nothing in my life but study. just study.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

31DAYS

Saturday, June 21, 2008
6:50 PM

SATURDAY 21 JUNE 08!
i love today (:

I just heard an aeroplane fly past, maybe thats seto's flight. he's back from JAPAN today. hahahhas my rival is like asking me to fetch him at th airport. well, she has his flight time and all sorts. so well, it proves she is a efficient stalker and she talks to seto quite alot. so so so , me? i'll take th other route, which is th passive route. hahhahas.

Im definitely a hero today. i packed my dust-collective-nd-fly-all-around room and bathed my two dearies! hahhas my dogs are so white now! same as my room! so well, its to prepare for th test on monday and tuesday! so that i can study and sleep better in my room! wad kinda strategy is this? well, hahhas anyway, i ought to remind myself to study once again!

so, raymond is in hospital. he'll be alright. cause he has his chair in his heart. chair, thats th remedy to his illness. which i wanted to tell him after his recovery. if not if i tell him now, he may die randomly! so so so, one whole grp went to visit him in hospital on friday! and he'll get well! cause he promised not to die so easily.

thurs! i went shopping with my mother! well, i forget when is actually th last time i seen my mother but forget it as long as i have chances to see her!

well, i realise, i think that im fat. but teenagers think im just nice but adults think im too bloody thin! okays, i shall just heckcare and eat as normal. and my normal is too terribly for you to imagine.

and saturday 21 june 08 marks th 31 days of not contacting. this may be th end cause i need to take photos from seto! ahhhh means have to talk to him! sucks! i feel weird. somehow i dont feel like talking to him.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

dare to love

Thursday, June 19, 2008
2:37 AM

yea dare to love.
that fortune teller told me that.
he said i'll miss lotsa chances in love if i continue protecting myself from love.

dare to love? you think it's that easy? absolutely not. i finally understand th facts now , i dont deserve relationship. cause i dont need it at all.

Actually , seeing them finding someone they liked shld make me happy. lthou from last time i knew i dont need them, but somehow i kinda feel lost when i know they found someone that they like alrdy. that kinda mixed feeling. When you felt that unpleasant way but you cant show it. Nd you must be generous, act like hero, feel happy for them, applause hard and say great job! thats some kinda an act in display which once its played, it cant be stopped. It'll go on, carry on and on and on.

yea, now i realise, its not protecting myself from love. its just i dont need it. i can live better w/o it. i desire freedom more than i desire love. so i shldnt feel lost when I heard them finding someone elses. Moreover, they're my brothers. it's good that right from th start, it's stopped. bcause i know being a clique can last forever but not lovers. yes, my clique, i wanted to be with you all for th time that i lived. i dont know how long more will take me to die. but for now, i just wna be with my cliques, my hunks my brothers.

for now, SETO!
im not confessing! i decided not to alrdy! Hengkhit may feel it's some kinda act again. but Im not alrdy.

First reason, is to preserve my girls pride. i think i cant live w/o pride and freedom in my life. they are some kinda as impt as my family and frens. so, i rather sacrifice love.

Second reason, which is th most impt reason. i dont wna lost SETO! so it's rather right from th start i dont have him at all! so so so, no gain, no lost! I know im a coward i freak out again! but this is bcos i think looking at him from far is better than anything elses!

Thirdly, i dont believe anyone in th world will/had love me before. so so so, i dont need to take this risk and try it on seto again. bcos, there's no one in th world that can love me more than myself. or you can say, no one will truly fall in love with someone. even there is, he/she will leave one day.

Last reason, i really know i dont need any relationships in my life. and i say bfore 18, no relationships last year. and now, this will apply also. my life will shine if im alone. and i can fly alone also. fly in th world of purple. no other colors, just purple. bcause only purple is heaven to me. yes heaven, den im devil in heaven. devil are bornt to live alone. so im a devil. bcause im not an angel.

yes im devil cause im not an angel.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

Tagged by Allie!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008
1:22 AM

Raymond gives me a testimonial in frenster!
and he says I shld blog bout it cause it's rare!
ITS NOT RARE AT ALL LO! DAMNN, HE GIVES LOTSA PEOPLE TESTIMONIAL AND TELL ME IT'S RARE! I THINK HE PURPOSELY WANTS MAKE ME ANGRY! YAHHH THIS MUST BE THE REASON! BUT SADLY, IM NOT ANGRY AND IM GNA BLOG BOUT HE GIVES ME A TESTIMONIAL AND IM NOT GNA TO REPLY HIS TESTIMONIAL!

alrights, all of this fail except th part bout me not replying his testimonial.
failed! and faint*

Nowadays, I've been encountering sleeping problems, which i think "doesnt matter laa".
as long as it dont affect my MST results!
i did not start any revision because starting earlier or later does do any help, as long as you cover everything and prepare yourself fully for it. furthermore, there's still 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 days time for me to catch up with everyone that started revision alrdy. so it's alright.
I can actually just use th last one day to study.
Well, as usual, Im still a slacker. Im never a PIA-er! as long as everything dont go outta plan.
and myplan now is to study whenever I like, but th last ONE day definitely must study!
dont too much stress must relax!

Monday went ITAM proj meet up!
Im been trying very hard to be a slacker!
and try contribute THE LEAST, but eventually it failed.
sometimes i think, its not very hard to succeed but very hard to fail with nothing!
becos, it's that moment of silly pride!
who will allow himself/herself to fail without by doing nothing, one will at least try!
so so so, i wish i do not try at all! but FAILED!
well, save my pride. maybe it's all becos of pride.

Okays pride.
my rival is like asking me to confess to seto.
well, i told her Im not going to.
You should know why i told her that.

confessing?
Maybe for th sake of thrill and fun
and to see his reaction and laugh at it.
and to prove he's unreachable!

well, there's no sign of hope or seriousness!
but, still, I dont know also laa.
maybe Im serious, maybe Im not.
becos I dont need anyone in my life, neither i need any guys wad!
so so so, maybe it's serious, but i dont need th seriousness.

I feel like Im a devil.
or you should say Im always a devil.
Okays but at least this devil dont display devilness right?
and this devil gt friends ard her.
one of them is allie! she tagged me! LOL

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Okays this is th TAG by Allie but i took dont know how many days later to do it!
Cause, Im been, dont know wad to blog about

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your first reaction be?
I 'll keep quiet nd step out of all those.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Dream come true? LOl just wna live a simple life.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
Lotsa pics at lotsa beautiful romantic places

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
I don't really care, just react accordingly.

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
Just give me Seto will do LOL

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
LOL, maybe just loving yourself will be better.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
As long as it doesnt hurt th pride.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Hmmmm, just leave nd live with it? there's nothing one can do.

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Hmmmm, seto? LOL

#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
Secretly loving LOL

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Being sexy and hot!

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
FRIENDS AND FAMILY!

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She's a random indecisive girl that i feel damn comfortable with!

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Married but poor, but i dont mind single & rich, for th sake of freedom.

#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
Forcing myself to wake up.

#16 Would you give your all in a relationship?
Depends if th person is worth giving or not.

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
For now, i shall PICK NO ONE!

#18 What type of friends do you like?
Independent but somehow depend on me. as long as they 're true, who really cares?

#19 What type of friends do you dislike?
Hmmmm if there's really a decision to make, i'll say it's someone that force me nd lie to me.

#20 What would you name your children in future? (Give 1 boy, 1 girl)
rainn for girl! with a "Yu" or "Rou" zi.
with a "Yu" for guys also

WHO TO TAG? well, there's limited people reading my blog.
some dont even have blogs!
hahahhas but i feel like tagging HAZEL!
there's no point tagging yixin cause SHE WONT CARE DE!
and yeahhs hazel! long time no see her alrdy!
omggg~ we wont lost contact, this is one thing i can confirm!
and Jianing, i did meet up with her recently.
MISSED.

YES SETO! no contact for 28 days!
near to one month!
maybe when it reaches how how how many days, it'll deserve a celebration!
he's in JAPAN and i saw him online sometimes.
and HE BROUGHT HIS PHONE OVER TO JAPAN!
hahhahhas but, knowing all this makes no difference.
it's doesnt matter where he is or who he is.
cause, there's no forward-ing, neither there's backwards-ing.
There's only drifting i guess.

and i gna be demure.
no one hears this wrongly. semantha ong is demure.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

photos time!

Saturday, June 14, 2008
2:04 AM

well my post are some kinda random and jumbled up!
hahhahs cause it's not by date order!

Okays, 7 June, RSS homecoming PARTY!
well, as usual im quiet in secondary school.
because i feel comfortable only when im quiet in sec sch!
well, my circle of frens in sec sch is very small.
hahhahs susan ray wf dk zl xinni yixin hazel jianing jieling vivien.
did i leave out anyone else's?
hahhahs that's my frens and maybe others are just HI-BYE frens
and no more.

well that's some kinda saddening right?
But i felt worthy instead.
because with them i feel safe. only with them.
because they know my flaws too well.
only because i sucks, thats why we are frens!
LOL because they sucks also, thats why they 're frens.
it's all bout accepting how much you sucks!

sososo, i love them like seriously~ gathering.
i just wan a frens gathering. only you guys~

This is DK bashing session!

and i know i look kinda JAP. lol well
this is th most waaa outfit i ever worn!

nd group pics agn!
sorry cause we pangseh wf and ran for pool halfway thru th homecoming

nd this is th most LOVED picture!
hahahhahs LOL! well, thou Im some kinda unglam~
but it's still very pretty!

well, nd my parents is away to genting from 10 - 13!
a four day three night trip!
so this FOUR days , shiok laa~

10June, I went shopping ~ LOL
i forget th details but still, shopping is girls' fav hobby!
den I went BBALL session!
Basketball, well, Im bad in it! but i never give up~

11June, Banner Painting session which I blogged alrdy!
Den I went BBALL session at NIGHT again!
at 9 - 10plus everynite? LOL

12June, went MOVIE with susantao, wf, ray, yixin nd xinni!
Well, they 're loved ! LOL!
nd i saw lex nd felicia.
for so long, ard two years.
people has been telling me they keep seeing both of em at cwp.
but i never have a chance.
now finally i saw them, but i dont know how to react.
Am I suppose to react in th first place?
How should I react?
Of cause Im stunned nd well I stumbled like crazy, walked up nd down nervously.
but of cause, i was acting cool infront of them by not saying hi.
They dint say anything either, so no win no lose?

WF went home after that.
den susan ray xinni yixin and me went CLARK QUAY.
LOL we wanted to enter MOS. but we cant!
well, so we went NECTARIE to eat cakes nd sandwiches!
well, th place is some kinda nice nd i 'll be back there to eat again!

den at ard 10plus, we left clarke quay nd head back to woodlands!
well, we went 888 for supper!
and susan tao really cant fetch girls in bike!
XINNI was screaming like crazyyy LOL!
well, they look some kinda like a couple.

we ate HUM, BBQ STINGRAY nd SOTONG!
well, we must admit, food is always our main spending whenever we go out!

I reached home at ard 1plus am.
it's scary to walk home alone!
Im scared, maybe i wanted someone but i dont really need someone.
so so so, i still can handle alone~
cause semantha ong is a hero.
i dont need a boyfren, but i cant stop thinking of seto~ LOL

Ya, seto. Hengkhit told me he's online when he's in JAPAN!
well, how's he doing? and sorts, gt th urge to find out!
but i shall stop being a stalker, shouldnt i?
because he's unreachable.

Friday 13 June, I forget wad i really do.
but I wake up very late!
and jianing went my house!
we went LIBRARY ! hahahs thats mine nd Jianing memories bahhs.
only she, i only go lib with her.
den after that I played audition with terence!
nd of cause Im thrashed by him! sad right?
den I bathed my DOGGIES! hahhahhahas
later went COUSIN house for dinner!
den again BBALL SESSION!
well i gt lotsa BBALL session for this whole week!
because Im on th route to growing taller!
my height now is 154.5cm!
hahahhahhas grow by o.5cm? yes!
den we went supper at 515!

well, my parents are back from genting!
and i cant enjoy such freedom again.
but i must admit i really enjoy this 4 days 3 nights of freedom!

nd seto, 24 days nd counting! hahhaas
well, i think i decided what Im going to do.
hope I 'll stick with it nd leave no regrets.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

CSCC banner painting

Wednesday, June 11, 2008
6:50 PM

I went BANNER painting today!

nd none of th PRs are there!
except me ZhiJie and Kienan!
which i hardly talk to them!
but i see YVONNE there! thats's lucky lor!
me and yvonne and junhao is like th only LIBRAE in cscc subcom!
siannn why th rest dont wan to join lehhs?

Banner painting is quite a success!
we managed to paint two today!
one last banner to go~
so so so, i get th pics alrdy! and gna blog in th cscc blog tonight!
well, blogging for cscc, more responsibilities to come!
because others like dont care liddat!

Seto's not there cause' he went JAPAN!
waaaaa (: till 21 june! nd he 'll be back!
okays! so you can imagine how long w/o him in my life!
HAHAHHAS but i know a big secret today!

alot peeps are anlian-ing SETO!
so im not th only one hur! hahahhas!
well well, he's some kinda popular althou he's not shuai nor attractive!

so sad hur! i also came to know that people ard him did chat about me nd regard me as a potential rival! omg! this is hilarous right?
Im not most not close with him and so you know hur~!
nd others even chat with him but I DID NOT LO!
so so so, i guess he knows it, he knows it all along!
but nothing is done from him!
so you all should know th answer laa~ it's kinda obvious!
everything is one sided!

but it's alright!
cause it's mend to be one sided right from th start ma!

now, at least i admitted it.

SETO-ing is become my hobby~
well, so bear with it hurr!
sorry sorry sorry

since he knows alrdy. wad more is there for me to deny?
21 days nd counting.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

18th day

Sunday, June 8, 2008
4:02 PM

it's th 18th day alrdy.
to look at him from far nd by just looking at him.
no more chats, no hello, no smiles, no everything.

but at least when everything stop,
there's still a 20 mins phonecall.
it's not "ended with nothing" right?

it's just normal carry-on with life,
plus a pinch of love,
1/3 litre of miss,
1/2 spoon of daydream.

th rest is really normal.

this holiday, maybe because of cscc,
there's still chance to see him.
but i dont feel like talking to him anymore.
just continue this 18 days, 19 days, let it move on to 100 days.
100 days of not talking.
well, althou it seems sad, but it's some kinda, old and romantic right.

11 - 13 june. AGM banner painting.
i did not reply th sms.
what's more to reply? just an OKAY and den fullstop?
and nothing more comes out from it.
i wna go there, just take a few glance, and continue acting low profile and being quiet.

hahas quiet? semantha ong is quiet!
that's quite terrible to hear this.
well, infront of others, my image is never quiet.
but why infront of CSCC PR, ahh?! i hate it.

i 'll contiue reaching for th unreachable.
he's unreachable.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

nd i miss you

Friday, June 6, 2008
1:51 PM

Im losing damn lotsa blood
nd i feel as if im fainting soon byebyebye

they say, once you lost th someone in life your, th feeling of loss, regret, emptiness will always be there, accompanying you, till th end of your life, till th day you die. your heart wont beat again, your tears nd every blood of yours will not be warm again, you'll never experience how beautiful is th world. cause' a part of you is gone, nd will be back again. it'll never be th same again. that's th feeling of regret.

until one day, maybe one day, th someone will be back. that one nd only someone, th never-ever-be-able-to-forget someone, th always-remembered-nd-clinged-hard-to-your-memories someone. he/she's someone that make your heart beat again, can make every cells of you warm again.

im waiting for that someone. cause' im dead 3 years ago, nd never have a chance to revive, never have a chance, never given a chance. even now, until now, not even a chance.

but now, i dont need th chance anymore. i dont need you, th unreachable. i'd know i can manage, nd i'll make it myself. there's no one in th world that someone can depend forever. so, i'll only rely on myself, nd only believe in myself. that's my only choice, to live on nd hold on forever, on my own.

if one day you cant reach out to me, send a message across th sea, nd i'd promised i'll pick it up with an ocean size love. it's th same wadever side you're on. as you're still missed, missed by me.

althou, i just know you for 2 months, talk to you for less than 10 times, have eye contacts for only 2 times. and you dont even know my existence, but sadly, i think im stucked on you. i really, dont wna have anything to do with you, but i cant help it.

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

sayonara fever.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008
3:12 PM

I forget how I spend my weekends!
I just rmb Im sick for very long

Monday,
ITAM proj meet up.
only took 30mins! lol and sayonara~

Tues! I went to make cookie!
nd Im still sick, which causes lotsa troubles!
sorry!
cause I wet Jiawen cookies.
nd I left my cookie at Allie house and she needa run back to take it for me.
nd I slept in bus for th whole ride which make Jiawen so lonely!
and I pangseh Allie to go out today
Ahhh Im terrible!
but I did enjoy making cookie at Allie house!
and i dont bear to eat all those cookies!
one day I shall make for everyone!
just wait (:

this is only of th cookies i made! waaa
i believe no cscc members will bypass my blog!
hahha since it's private!

nd I scare my brother like crazy ytd!
well, nightmares again.
for every fever, i sure get nightmares.
but this time worst, after i woke up, i even have illusions.
and he thought im possessed by ghost!
it's like so damn funny!
guess he level up or so le!
gain experience by being scared!
but crazy stuffs that i did, im too shy to mention.

well, maybe seto's coming back from chalet today.
but maybe tml.
im not sure actually.
so so so, see when he online den will know alrdy! yeahs!

and xin and accompany psycho me to homecoming!
if not for them, i wont even consider going RSS homecoming.

but with them, im sure will be fun (: hehehehe!

and my fever finally is gone!
like for 3 days alrdy!
which cause nightmares for me for 2 nightS
and im dying from it soon!

well, but my damn asthma symptoms still there!
it's like period!
every month come once!
i hate you!

tml auntie's back!
yeahhh nd finally i can rest!
nd i love eating tomatoes!
okays bye!

I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天

devil ; fly

♥ 我爱雨天
雨天我就想一个人
只有一个人我才能全心爱自己
雨天把我忘了吧

rainn
Plain bitter tea and full cream milk tea are both chosen decisions which I fancy. Im not a dreamy person who dazes every single moment. Im just someone living in my own world where fantasies are painted. I had lived in my dreams and for my dreams. Not an initiative person in socialising, waiting for someone to break through th façade is th only comfortable way out.

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