3:15 PM 4:20 PM
that yixin huhx.. wad also wan complain.. now beside me.. i write wad then she ask me the meaning.. say the meaning wrong liao.. ask me change.. lolx.. so ma fan.. _._
chinese we do ti gang.. thinkin of grp name.. we think of LU SHE DE JI DAN , TU ZI TANG ZAI ZHEN TOU CI... wad crap rite.. LU SHE is me lah.. then JI DAN is yixin.. TU ZI is ray.. ZHEN TOU is susan.. nice name horx.. haha..
my parents dun let me go out wif my freens liao.. wad crap.. they think wad.. they my frens.. not gangster.. dunno wad crap.. they nve let me do the things im interested in.. like modern dance, debate.. presentation.. sports day.. cross country.. rising star.. racial harmony.. all sorts of class activities.. this are my interets.. i love them.. so call my hobbies.. dun think i hav other hobbies except tv liao.. wad crap.. without all these class activities, i will DIE... lols.. my life wont be interesting.. i noe results and exams are important.. of course they are.. but i think life and happiness are more important.. if they wanna control my life and happiness, i rather die.. if u all see me one day in the news, saying i commit suicide, 99.99% is becoz of my parents.. they sux like hell.. i will take good care of myself.. lols.. i will get good results.. i realli hope them to understand that.. im no longer a kid.. i hav my owe life and freedom, as well as interest.. frens is part of my life too.. how can they forbid me from them?? and i will not let anything affect my studies.. my EQ isnt that bad right.. unless my parents, or i wil not affect my studies.. the more they control me, i think my results drop more..
雨天
6:30 AM
this year.. quite werid.. but i somehow like it.. we dun buy presents for frens anymore... maybe have.. but next time.. owe first... lols.. but i realli dun mind.. wad i can is ur sincere.. and our frenship.. im not that lame asking for presents anymore.. so thick skin huhs..i jus hope, our frenship is true and last as long as possible.. and next year, dun change class!!!
雨天
8:04 PM
charlie ask me who are my best frens.. i think very hard.. hard enough to rack my brain.. i think that best frens are those that can be trusted, giving u a sense of warmth, and most importantly and very big communication.. somehow telepathy.. like me and yixin bah.. haha.. can say the same things together.. my best frens?? u all shld noe who u are.. telepathy?? haha.. i jus noe that.. they are people to be with me whenever i am sad or happy.. really feel the warmth in my heart.. i am very satisfied now..
actually.. people shlds think the possitive way in everything.. thats make life better.. more enjoyable.. im glad now.. still with him.. i can feel the sense of security.. even he hold me for more than 1 year already.. im trying to be more understanding.. haha.. unbelievable.. both of us are already half adults.. we hav our own world.. we hav our own frens.. i spend my time with my frens.. he can too.. though he spend lots of time with them.. haha.. cos.. im not everything.. i cant replace his everything.. people muz hav their own world to be satisfied.. as long as.. he only loves me, and thats enough.. (=
雨天
11:03 PM
NEGATIVE + NEGATIVE = POSITIVE
SAD + SAD = HAPPY
but this type of happiness is fake happiness.. forcing myself to forget about the sadness.. debate.. we lose.. i cried.. frm deep inside my heart.. my heart hurts alot.. but not frm debate.. i jus using this chance to pour my feelings out.. debate is rather disappointing.. but it is not the main factor that makes me cry.. something deep in my heart.. troubling me.. for a long time.. i dun wish to face it.. jus hope it is not the truth.. and go away itself.. but my heart tells me that it is true.. six sense?? im not good in tat.. anyway.. let bygones be bygones.. im tryin not to think of it...
life?? wads that??
to live in happiness.. treasuring every single second... spend it to the fullest.. leave the world with no regrets... thats a beautiful life.. life?? dun live for the future.. dun live for the past.. jus live for the present.. cherish life...
雨天
4:29 PM
sickening
ingratitude
inhaumane
devoid of conscience
hypocrite immortal
...
anyway.. jus to vent my anger.. for no reason..
somethings.. think ad reflect back in life.. there may be lots of things u may leave out.. something tat u dunno.. sit down and think.. think carefully.. ren xin xian er.. u nve noe wads ppl r thinking.. the ANGELS in ur life may become the DEVILS.. the ppl u think tat are DEVILS may be the one that care for u most..
the world is changing at every single second.. so many things are happening at the same time and same place.. nve noe wads gonna happen the other moment.. always be prepared for the worst..
higher hope= higher dissapointment.. no hope = no dissapointment... u will nve noe that e ppl tta are close to u may betray u one single day.. dun pin too much hope on someone.. humans are not tat trustful..
if u hav go through some interesting events wif a person, even when there is nothing to talk, something will still come out of ur mouth.. but if u noe someone.. even u treat him well, love him, care for him, but both of u are spending a little time together, there will be almost nothing to talk wif.. i do agree.. the time he is wif her is 10 times more than me.. thats all fated.. no exciting things happen to both of us.. nor wif other ppl.. cos in front of others.. he wont talk unless i make the first move.. fated is fated.. though i still believe that i can change fate.. but im giving up soon.. i dun trust her already..
wad craps im talking.. i dunno.. i think and think and think for few hours.. this is all wad i think of..
雨天
雨天
7:49 PM
although u r already not wif us.. but deep in our heart.. u r the best.. ur leaving shadow seems like water tat hav been splash out.. nve be back again.. but perecious memories nve leave..
雨天
8:13 PM
雨天
2:36 AM
todae aL ask me a question.. if he is on 1 side and the other ppl that i love is on another side, which side would i choose? i was wondering what he means.. maybe something in his heart again.. very lazy to reply sms nowadays.. say it here...
if onli he is on the side, i will choose him.. but if him wif his frens on the side, i will 100% not choose that side.. not becos i dun like his frens.. but jus i noe he wont talk to me infront of his frens.
lex bdae.. happy bdae to u, happy bdae to u, happy bdae to QING REN, happy bdae to u!! haha.. i wont play it in sch.. but outside, i will play..
雨天


