Tried to be strong, tried to get use to not being together, tried to get used to socialising, tried to get used to giving people i don't care the attention, tried to be more observant to people i don't care about.
You know, when you care about someone, paying attention comes very naturally. Thinking about their situation comes very naturally too. Sometimes, even when you tried getting them out of your mind, certain topics still trigger the thought of them. That is why friends and family are part of your life, always.
And when you want to forget that part of your memoy, you start to avoid bringing up some topics, some words you used to say. However that memory unfortunately becomes more vivid.
Irony.