Sometimes, it is not affecting my daily life, but most of the time, it requires conscious effort to get it under control. Don't tell me I overthinked it as it has been more than 'quite sometime' I'm bombarded with such emotions, usually without any specific reasons. It can be triggered with the smallest even nonexistent manners and flows of such emotions ascends without warning. Maybe 'triggered' or 'ascends' is not the right word. These emotions are constantly there, lying deep inside, stopping me from focusing myself on daily responsibilities. I had got over the fact of many memories, or you can say I have embraced their occurance. I gave in, finally, accepted the cold hard truth that an insignifant individual is not sufficient to change anything or anyone's life. Frustration, feeling of hopelessness and incapacitated with uncontrollable circumstances become part and parcel. 'It will soon be gone', I told myself countless times. Facade doesn't reveal much. The emotional struggle I faced due to any decision, even the smallest I make everyday put me into deep procrastination due to fear and avoidance. How do I learn to trust with such a black pit living within? I'm constantly falling into the black hole.
