Are we at the point where any push will break us up? Are we at the point that we are beyond salvation? Are we at the point where there's nothing we can promise each other? Is anything else we can do to show each other the love we have is still there?

Yes I would leave you alone, because any other things I say or do will make you feel I'm psychotic.

I wish I would have the courage to tell you the love you make me feel at the initial stage of our relationship  and the disappointment I feel when you took back the love you had for me bit by bit.

You were feeling that I don't appreciate whatever you have done for me, and I secretly wish you reflected the times you took me for granted as well. I secretly wish you realised how you had left me behind and chunked me aside. It was silly for me to not "interrupt" you and to believe you would love me more. However, your freed attention was given to "people" I didn't expect.

I can't blame you, I blame myself for believing you won't change. I blame myself for thinking we were perfect, therefore when flaws showed, expectations shattered into pieces.

I shouldn't have revolved my life around you, shouldn't have fell so deep and make you my everything because when things fall apart it hit me so badly that I couldn't piece myself together.

You don't need my presence. When things happen, what hit you is my psychotic behaviour which make you felt trapped. I wish you were objective enough to consider why I reacted this manner.

I'm like a cage to you.

I have overestimated your love for me.
I have overestimated your maturity to segment work from life and to be able to hold the world together with me.
I have overestimated your composure to stay calm admist challenges.
I  have realised you are a human eventually  but not the perfect image you have set in the first place.

We are already choosing to let the issues sink deeper when we chose not to deal with it immediately.

When we left each other alone in many occasions, we are already choosing oir ego above each other.

I won't hold you back, because I won't want you feeling regretful in the future for things you have not done because you wanted to make me "happy".

I gonna let you have your successes and hopefully come to a realisation how much you miss out in love. Or maybe it doesn't matter. Because love and me is never your priority.