hmmm.. i dunno wad i can do now.. to improve the situation. afterall this whole thing is caused by me.. wad can i do is to help the two frens to get out of all problems in the heart.. hmmm.. if anyone wan me to bear full responsiblity, i hav no objection.. dun blame the two frens of mine.. they are really tired of this.. blame ME! i cause this.. if i am not unreasonable to change everything.. this wont hav happen.. BLAME ME THEN! dammit guilty.. hais..
today maths lesson.. so sians.. i do things in pencil.. i skip the second question as i erase that off.. cos i noe that one easy so i skip first lorhs... then the rest of algebra questions i get them all right.. but in the end. mdm nora still ask me to stand and i become VIP... hais.. i wanna prove to her.. my results still is as good as the past.. i think i gonna do all the 205 questions in the maths wb chapter 5 and 100 from chapter 6 then i will show it PERSONALLY to her.. not becos im angry or wadeva.. this is the matter of pride.. hmmm. i mus really prove to her like wad xinni say..
stay back till 5plus to do maths.. the others leave at 4plus already.. hmmm.. in order to probe mdm nora.. i wont leave until i finished 40 questions in 1 h 15mins.. hais.. was my pride that strong?! ray they all leave at 4 plus liao then xin and angel leave too.. left with me and lex only.. hmmm.. ray huhs! leave again. he is always the one that make me feel so weird when he pangseh me. hmmm.. hais.. yesterday pierce that ear hole is like so painful.. the most painful one bah.. cos it is very near to the bone.. soon, i will hav 3LEFT1ONE hahas.. wait.. i hav it liaos!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
5:42 PM
一个人生活
演唱:林凡
叶子在窗外轻轻爷
人行道没有行人走
过镜子里的我很不像
我自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热
我感觉如果要走谁能说 no
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
6:10 PM
it was like.. hmmm..feeling was so weird..being affected by the two cancers beside me. while walking home, the two cancers will like so moody. yeah~ they are.. can see it and feel it.. cos they are my frens..no matter how a leo can start talkin or making the atmosphere high, my mood was too drag down by the two cancer.. the feeling wad damn weird. i dunno how to describe. at first i hav so much to say but in the end. i end up wih nothin.. cancer are super great at dragging down ppls feeling huhs! i hope they are alright now.. really.. but impossible.. everyone was tired.. including me.. i feel like giving up.. for the sake of others.. i think i gonna continue struggle.. no matter how strong a person can be, they still need a helping hand. hmmm.. my helping hand is my future.. but how will my future be? i hav a clear one last time.. jus a few weeks ago.. but now.. it started to fade.. i dun even dare to think wads gonna happen the next moment.. hmmm.. no matter how much self esteem a leo hav, it will be beaten down when too much pressure jus press on you.. i took a self esteem test jus now.. in the past i always get 80 and above.. now i cant even reach 60.. hmmm.. charlie and company was going to play their super magic cards after maths which i hav simply no interest on.. i hav the time to follow suit.. but i simply give up.. cos i noe i wont be enjoying instead it will spoil my precious day.. but in the end my day is spoil by the two cancers.. hmmm.. i think i shld hav some moments of peace before anything.. really. i need some peace..
charlie.. i hope both of us get over as soon as possible.. i dun wan others to be affected for goddness sake.. hmmm.. i used to respect you alot. and i mean it.. but.. i simply cant get back the respect i gave to you.. by calling me stupid simply hurts my pride.. i was greatly affected cos you are once my good fren. if you wont my god fren, i wont care wad you say..
xinni.. thanks alot.. cos in the class, lesson time, i still hav you and gz to calm me down when i get so tensed up. hahas.. actually still need to thanks you and diann, poixin anqi for operating the ear for me.. hahas.. hmmm. im very grateful cos we are always partners in class activites.. i wonder if next year, i hav a chance again?
hey yixin.. i was really wondering.. anything happen anot? really really really really really strange.. hais.. i cant think so much now.. i cant find out the cause of you.. cos im really tired.. but.. pls tell me if you need help//
hazel.. yos hazel.. if you need me to explain to teacher bout the ahem* thing.. jus tell me huhs!! i will help you one..
angel.. hmmm.. chee yong.. give up on him.. he is no cure.. really.. irresponsible ppl like him wont do maths when needed.. dun worry too much.. cos in my heart, you arent a failure..
the rest i really dun wish to think anymore... give me a break first..
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
5:24 PM
我想自由 \\-张峰奇
面对自我矛盾难过
无助脆弱弥漫疑惑
泪水滑落我曾说过我想自由
成全只是你的藉口我不愿懂
你离开以后我们的承诺
被丢弃角落灵魂被掏空
我承认是我没有用
为什么你坚持要走
我想自由不想放手就
算一切无法改变还是会承受
我想自由不想分手
你选择走放我的手
希望离开以后自由
LIVING IN THE WORLD THAT IS BEING STUCKED? NO ONE WILL BE HAPPY//*
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
7:04 AM
FOR PSQ SAKE, I CONTINUE WITH IT .......... ........... ............ ..........
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
8:43 PM
I KNOW WADS IM FEELING AND I KNOW WHY IM FEELING THIS! I KNOW I HAV SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEMS BUT WHO IN THE CLASS DUN HAVE? I UNDERSTAND MYSELF MOST COS NO ONE ELSE IN THE WORLD KNOW! I WONT GIVE PRESSURE TO RAY COS I KNOW IM GIVING HIM TOO MUCH! SO I GIVE UP AND LEAVE HIM ALONE!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
4:45 PM
i need not explain anything here. i need not type anything here.. i need not sms to explain or tell.. gt questions, ask me personally.. be brave.. and take out your courage.. will not reply your SMSes. unless it mus be solved at the moment...
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Monday, September 26, 2005
8:45 PM
hmmm. mr chong is dammit biased. though he is redder taller and fatter than me, it doesnt mean he can scold me as he likes. wad the fiak he is. since the first lesson of dnt he is like keep picking on me loh. i lie on the table, he wil scold me, but psq leh. he didnt even wanna look at psq loh. biased ppl. zuai lorhs.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Sunday, September 25, 2005
6:39 PM
shopALONE is so great!! today at first wanna go causeway with ray psq xin lex and so on one.. but i called ray and find out hes going out with his dearest neighbour then nvm lorhs! i go shopALONE since i never did that for long. it is really damn peaceful and fun! i bought quite alots of things lorhs. at first wanna get a simple present for hazel but later on realise i hav run out of money. i bought a kiwi ice blended! hey it really taste nice lerhs! but i go into chamelon and drop the drink on the floor! i like totally sians diaos! starring on the ground liddat, then ssalesgirl as me go wash hand then i faster chao one. so unlucky huhs! then i bought a wallet, a keychain. a poker card, a handphone stripe. i dunno why keep buying and buying things! at first wan buy something for my mum then no money liaos. in the end realise i forget bout hazels present. LMAO!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
12:21 PM
*NOTE* SET YOUR ENCODING TO UNICODE BEFORE READING!!
<-VIEW-><-ENCODING-><-UNICODE->
世界是不公平的,人生往往会遇到不如意!但是我们始终要勇敢面对!sem ((= i can be stronger.family problems means nothing cos i noe i hav a group of frens supporting me\\-
是吗我过得好吗
你最想听到什么回答
请不要装作一副挂心
一直放不下
没什么好尴尬
这样吧 不如聊聊你和他或是你想撇过头
去一言不发
我也不觉得惊讶喔
是吗 你承认过去都是你不好
忽略我对你有多重要
明明知道我的伤永远好不了就算我肯点头心痛也不会变好是吗你确定我们缘份还未了
感情火灭了如何燃烧
越得不到越想要
胃口真不小
谈情却像龟兔赛跑
爱岂能像龟兔赛跑
不能专一不如不要relationship is nothing for me NOW and future. there was no need for relationship even if there is love as relationhip is jus a identity. there wasnt a need for identity for everything. like frens, true frens dun name themselves. cos in the heart, you understand ands i understand, that will be enough.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
12:47 AM
I HATE MY BROTHER! HE IS SIMPLY A ASSHOLE!! HEY.. THAT ASS PLAYED COMPUTER EVER SINCE MORNING THEN WONT EVEN LET ME PLAY AT NIGHT. DUNNO WHICH ASS CREATED GAMES LIKE MAPLE THAT ASS UP THE WHOLE HOUSE OF MINE! WHY CANT I HAV THE RIGHTS TO PLAY AT NIGHT!
HEY CHARLIE, I NOE YOU GONNA BE PISSED OFF AND SCOLDED ME FOR SCOLDING MY ASS BROTHER! HEY YOU ARE NOT ME OKAY!! YOU WONT UNDERSTAND WAD IM FEELING! I HATE MY BROTHER MORE THAN YOU HATE YOUR PARENTS. HEY YOU ARE LIVING IN THE WORLD 10X BETTER THAN ME. AT LEAST YOUR PARENTS ARE NOT DOING ANY DIVORCE. MINE ARE. AND YOUR BROTHER. AT LEAST HE WONT HIT YOU! HOW ABOUT ME? BEING BULLIED AND PISSED OFF BY THAT ASS BROTHER!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Friday, September 23, 2005
2:01 PM
wah~ i wonder did i offend anyone in 2`7? alfred is like keep diaos me liddat.. or maybe .. not me.. i dunno larhs.. he ass anyway... and i dun give a damn to him.. LOL.hahas.. but jus now in cwp, he keep like diaos me liddat.. hmmm.. maybe he diaos lex?? but anyway.. lex not scare wad.. LOL.hahas. then why shld i bother? ignore that ass larhs.. he wont affect us!
PISSED`OFF;COWARDS
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
1:30 AM
im fat and i seriously need a diet.. not the stop eating diet but the start exercising diet. this few days im been eating but without everciseig.. i cant go on like this. the feeling isnt good.. sweating can help. it help to ensure that fats are burn off!!! hmm.. i better stop eating unless i av the time for exercising..
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Thursday, September 22, 2005
4:06 PM
wuha~ geography lesson is the
best lesson ever huhs! it was *yawning time!! then gz and asking me why so tired?!! but almost every geography lesson i was that tired. hahas. then sorta starting to play again!! gz act like gay then i act like some gay some meng* nan! his voice act gay like so disgusting and eerie! like
tai jian liddat! then in the end nve listen lesson at all! but that was better if not mdm harn lesson is dammit bored! hahas.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
3:48 PM
hey. im a eating ice cream failer huhs! after finishing ipw powerpoint. xin ray lex and me go outside staffroom buy ice cream plus bread. at first wan but cup one.. but see they all all buy bread then i same same bread also.. they all finish their ice cream liao but me still left half!! omg. then bus 900 come.. i see they all board the bus. so sians liddat then also go board. i never expect my ice cream to drop on my hand in the bus!!! alot ppl saw it. hahas. so sians diaos. but this is nohting to be paiseh about. as if ppl dun drop ice cream before! hahas.. my hand is like all full of cream!! then use lex water wash hand in front of ray. causing his bag to be cream solution!! hahas. so funny. they all alight from bus liaos. then i alight with ray lorhs. bo bian mah. then he ask me if i know how to walk home anot. then we walk walk and walk but walk back the same place!! LMAO.hahas. i bae tahan!! then bo bian i ask him go home larhs. cos i really noe how to walk home mah! dun treat me as a small girl liddat lerhs!! hahas. although i noe my IQ is low. but my common sense not bad huhs!!!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
4:36 PM
hmmm.. the love pain in my heart is decreasing. cos the torturing become lesser and lesser as time goes by. time can heal everything. but of cos, this is still pain in my heart.. but another pressure is adding over it. that is frens. i never expect the pressure of frens can be so big. seeing all of them falling apart is as hurtful. as hurtful as losing someone you love. cos frens hav eventually become the ones i loved. if i hav a chance, i hope everything will be alright and no more fights among them. fights can be solved. if i died, my last wish is to see all my frens be happy again. cos except for this, nothing can let me leave the world with worries.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
4:11 PM
how lame am i talking? but im totally SERIOUS. i understand alot of things today..
FRENS WILL LEAVE ONE DAY. A ONE YEAR FRENSHIP CAN BE FORGOTTEN SO EASILY. IM TOTALLY EPI FU BY HER. THIS WILL BE GOOD. MAKE ME SO RELAX NOW. COS I FINALLY FIND MY ANSWER.
MATURE DOESNT NEED TO BE SERIOUS ALL THE TIME. and mature need to be shown. mature is there for us to feel and proved. being SERIOUS doesnt mean mature at all. cos serious people cant do anything sometimes. mature means to able to think carefully in one another shoes but not to be selfish and think only for yourself. MATURE PEOPLE CAN BE SCREAMING AT THEIR TOP OF THE VOICE AND ENJOYING ALL THE HAPINESS BUT AT THE SAME BE SRIOUS WHEN THEY OUGHT TO BE. thats the real mature. cos this is when we can truly control our feelings. im not sayin im mature. infact im not. the true mature people are those that really noe hows to think. remeber THINK AND REFLECT!! this is the important one.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Monday, September 19, 2005
2:06 PM
hmmm. yesterday so scary. fever jump till 39.somthing going 40 liaos. feeling so cold sias! hmm. a great chance to skip school cos i got lotsa hmk never do. i hate eating medicine cos somehow i can smell the medicine wherever i go. the smell is unbearable. hahas. but hmmm. i quite worry bout my maths self practice. i pass the accessment book to lex in the morning but scare mdm nora will scold!! my maths file and all this. omg!! dunno wads her comments. jus dun wan be VVVV.IP hahas. dunno if tml got go school anot. hahas. dun feel like going lehs!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Sunday, September 18, 2005
1:53 AM
hmmm.horoscope siao liaos. checking bout horoscope in the internet again. hmmm lex\\- cancer always drag ppl to their feelings. hahas. even drag leo inside too. hahas. ignore me bah~ im always liddat de larhs.
fever still there. but better liao larhs. friday morning is like. so painful. so headache but dun expect it to be fever. maybe spend too much energy liaos? hahas. mon modern dance, tues swimming, wed PE, thurs modern dance again. then fri is SICK!!! hahas.LOL wad kinda craps izzit again huhs! but now better le lah. it is like rising on fri. from 38.1 then become 38.4 then worsen again become 39 liddat. but afterall, thanks to my good health now only 37.something nias.
i jus finish watching a show call LANG MAN MAN WU one hour ago. but still thinkin of it. cos the plot of the show is very funny. it is a korean show bahs. a korean singer guy larhs called RAIN, which is my future daughter name, is the main lerhs. hahas. hmmm. sunday gt ge dou tian wang and wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui 3 to see. hmmm. pack with tvs program? maybe bahs. TV SIAO now. sunday morning still got tuition nias. now 2am liao but still havent do hmk. hahas. how lazy am i wors. waiting for my dearest supper to come at 2.30 mahs. hmmm. everytime supper. always forget that i on diet. hahas.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Friday, September 16, 2005
4:05 PM
today gt maths file check huhs! but after school i go eat lunch le then go home. cos i sick mahs~ wahs~ sick again! i dunno how many times i fell sick this year!! when become so weak wors. later going back school again. for maths file check. that one mus go if not kena scolded. xinni chio bu like kanjiong spider like that. cos she later nve go maths file check mahs. ask me help her check. hahas. hmmm. today at science lab i become so lame. tellin so many lame jokes. learn from guozheng one mahs. he almost everyday tell me something lame. his suspend story also that lame. hahas. but lame is good. cos i get happy when listenin to his lame jokes.hahas. i think not long later, i will get as lame as him bahs. then yesterday that mdm say me and guozheng patuoIN.. i sians diaos lorhs. we are quarrelin over a pen then she say we patuo in.the scence is liddat. we doing geography corrections mahs. then i no green pen. he lend me his cos he gt two. one is ink full one, another one gonna finish so abit like no ink.he use the full of ink one mahs. later he finish his corrections liaos, he ask me to use the full ink one. but i dun wan.
i say ; this one [ ink finishin le] still gt ink
gz say ; use this one [ ink full de ]
i say ; this is still gt ink larhs. i use this one!
gz ; use this one lah! i ask you use then you use
i say ; this one still gt can mahs. can use wad.
gz say ; my one more INK! can anot!
then i started laughin cos his expression like so ji dong liddat. hahas. then mdm harn come here and scold. maybe we talk too loud liaos. hahas. i sians diaos lohs. quarrelin she say patuoIN. then she leave liao i tell gz. papa pao daughter izzit? hahas. then he laugh again. he very funny huhs!
hmmm. modern dance everything doing fine except. i dunno the eygption dance. so hard nias. the hiphop one i started to master it liaos. hahas. but going md very stressed. who ask i dunno the eygption dance which is for SYF and opening ceromony.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
6:37 PM
I TOTALLY SIANS DIAOX LORHS. NOWADAYS SO MANY FEIWEN BOUT ME.. but you think i care?? LOL.hahas. if you are jus an outsider, why shld i care so much bout wad u guys think?? hahas. very attitude horx. at first i heard frm 2/6 girls and yue wen.. they ask if me and lex stead??? hey hey.. wad mind you guys are thinking.. im a human.. how can be with a AFRICAN FEMALE BLACKIE DOG huhs?? LOL.hahas. but me and him really nothing lorhs.. us very very good frens. hahas.. then ppl say bout me and ray.. this time they really misunderstand liao.. his cloths, ws all pass to me.. waKAO ehh.. hahas. but nvm lahrs.. we good frens mah.. jus scare that 2`5 will misunderstand.. cos now wad matter most is my class and my frens.. yeah~ but if they misunderstaand then misunderstand loh. QING ZHE ZHI QING mah! but most probably they wont bah.. i dunno still gt wad fei wen bout me that i nve heard one.. hmmm.. but let me say first huhs! I WONT STEAD AGAIN IN SECONDARY SCHOOL. so all your FEI WEN bout me steading all GET LOSE!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Monday, September 12, 2005
9:34 PM
hais.. first day of school so sians.. ppl ard me like so scare of my liddat.. am i that keesiao and crazy meh? hmm.. today... alot improvement.. i rarely talk today.. quit alot of ppl ask me wad happen.. but.. hais... really nothing larhs.. i jus trying.. trying very hard not to irritate ppl.. but there is something i wont change.. my singing.. i cant talk my feelings out.. but i can use songs to express them.. hahas. wad crap.. i noe.. it is crap.. i like listen to music.. esp chinese music alot.. cyn one really make me feel touch.. cos most of the songs. give me the feeling im feeling.. craps again.. hahas.. guo zheng no need so scare of me.. i wont eat you.. i promise.. i try not to irritate you can? hahas. i did do it today.. jiale didnt complain during DNT lesson.. i was surprised.. hahas.. another reason.. maybe is really im not happy bah..heart is like hard to breath.. cos it is quite pain.. but i nve noe the reason. i dun wish to noe also.. maybe this is better.. can make me quieter and not to irritate others too.. since im so keesiao in ppls eyes..
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Sunday, September 11, 2005
3:48 PM
05`SEPTEMBER10\\-wahh~ ytd iish a vehrie short dae. meet lex and xin at de library but den we go eat at de mcdonalds. hahas. hmmm. wad can i say iish we waste alot of time lorhs. after tat we go library again but de dunno who chase us out cos de place iish nort fer studying de. diaos diaos// later we no choice cos the library iish full mah~ den bobian go my house de resident corner there. hahas. we hor didnt do homework liddat lorhs. cos reali dunno wad to start doing wiv. too many already. den we chat and chat nonstop lorhs. firstly i started sae`in bout horoscope.
THE RESEARCH WE FOUND OUT hmmm.. capricon is suppose to be very very very hardworkin that one. but.. hmmm.. give life eg. larhs.. charlie.. is he VERY hardworking? hahas. yupps maybe he is but not to the really siao hardworking that type..
then skip skip and skip..
TAURUS lerhs.. jus noe this ppl very stubborn de. can conside the most stubborn of all bah~ hahas. PSQ mah~ indeed he is damn stubborn loh. ask him do this but he insist on doing that one.hahas.
GEMINI lerhs.. hmm.. my mum horoscope huhs... this type of ppl huhs.. very good in communication skills.. very socialise too.. lex say it is the most OUTGOING but i say NO.. i rmbed very clearly that most outgoing is LEO wad.. haha.. but i can deny that gemini is very very socialise.. like my mum bah~
then duno skip till where again..
CANCER now.. hmmm.. cancer mah.. this ppl is sorta ermmm.. good of blaming himself/herself.. kks.eg. if u ask a cancer and a leo to say bout its bad points, you will see that leo one only gt write afew one but cancer can reach more than a page.. this show that cancer is very good at thinking and thinking.. hahas. then cancer leh.. wont reali wanna fight for rewards and all this. hahas. yixin and lex huhs. both is cancer. no wonder huhs. rewards and all this mostly is me that snatch for it. then cancer leh, when scolding ppl, wont scold till
!$@#%@#%@$!@%! but.. they will only shout a few words then they will stop bah~.. they wanna communicate but mostly they cant.. hahas.
now LEO leh. im leo.. think i will be biased bah.. hahas. but i noe quite alot bout it.. hmmm leo mah.. those that will ask for pride and so call face alot one.. the ppl rather dun play if not mus get first in the match. hahas. this kinda character is like wan to win everything liddat. and leo mah. as wad i say is very outgoing one. can make frens easily but maintain frenship for leo isnt that easy. then leo is very very proud one loh.. he wan respect frm others bah~ this is wad i feel lah.. in relationships. mostly is leo that will make the first move in asking the "other one" or telling him or her that u like him/her or wadeva one.. they wont woo the gals/guys that they hav no confidence in being together with them. hmm.. very proud hor. leo are very confidence ppl as well as very playful that type one.. those that take life easily one and wont think so long and the future. when scolding ppl leh. they will like.. scold and scold non stop de..
VIRGO.. hais.. sians huhs!! a perfectionist.. sians diaox. my dad is a virgo. ask for perfect one loh. result one fail also cannot. a little rubbish on the ground also complain. hmm.. but virgo leh. is very careful one.. they can take note of things you say and you like. but.. virgo mah.. they tend to plan for the furure. they dun like to jokes for serious things. like so tight and stress like that. but virgo in terms of relationship mah. they are in the top few "faithful" column. but they wont really go and woo the person they like unless the other person say it first.. so sians!!!!
LIBRA leh. mostly, i cant get along with ppl like libra.. MY BRO loh. libra is the horoscope that will go on complainnig and complaining.. waaahh~ so blah blah blah.. then they are qute stubborn too.. i dunno much bout it larhs. jus noe liddat only..
SCORPION is a very MYSTERIOUS person bah.. you wont guess how he or she is feeling easily.. then lerhs.. hmmm.those that can be hurt easily de. aiyah stop here le larhs. next time then continue..
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Friday, September 9, 2005
6:29 PM
hey lex, if you are the UNLOVED, UNCHERISHED one, then who am i?? im the REAL F0RG0TTEN!! i mean it loh!! i jus dun wanna admit.. since long long ago, hmmm.. im feelig the same as you.. jus hope that things will get better in a small corner.. and i tell myself again and again! i dun need them.. if one day. they leave me, let them be!! i can be stronger!! yeahhh~ cos one muz try to live for ownself... you noe them longer, the feelings for them will be much stronger compared to me.. but.. i noe, you are 10x stronger than me ritex!! i can do it, so you can too.. smile pls ((=
actually.. the left out and neglected feeling izzit great... i felt it alot of times.. since pri sch, then secondary.. yeahhh~ even now.. i mean it loh.. hmmm.. but you arent left out.. you still gt ray at least.. hahas... so smile always..
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Thursday, September 8, 2005
5:55 PM
toLEX
+ \\ you are not UNLOVED ;*
+ \\ you are not UNCHERISHED ~
} ^ a million SORRY(s) `]]
} ^ PLEASE forgive me huhs //-
` . YOU are NOT f0rg0tten -{{
` . YOU are ALWAYS remembered +_*
* - I LOVE YOU >3+
* - WE GUYS LOVE YOU >3+
* - I WANNA REPEAT ;
* - iHEARTyou //*
||~ i dunno wad can i 'say ]]*
||~ but these are from ;
=> the BOTTOM of myHEART *-
_ no matter wad ^)+
_ YOU are FOREVER }}
_ my BEST pal >3
_ my BEST buddy >3
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Monday, September 5, 2005
11:36 PM
hmmm... i found out something on my face!!! when i smile, i always found it weird on my lips.. i finally know why!!! my left cheeks is bigger than my right, maybe thats called fats and there is some linings on my left cheeks.. causing when i smile, my left cheeks is bigger.. and my lips.. at the corner, left side is facing down one but the right side is up!!! wad kinda weirdo is that huhs??!!no wonder, i always seen weirdo when i smile.. and my left cheek is always heavier!!! LOL.. wad kinda craps is that??!!
jus now recieve a phone call from ray.. he said angel [who is in suzhou] asked me to go msn.. omg!! i was like so shocked!!! then i faster chao to the com!! LOL i chatted with angel.. good to noe everything for her is alright.. yeahhh~ then i called her parents as wad she ORDERED me to.. hmmm.. looks like her parents is kinda RELAXED bout her ((=
TO ANGEL, to repeat jus now wad ur parents had said if u hav forgetten it.. this will be good if u happen to see my blog in suzhou.. JUS NOW, YOUR MUM LISTEN TO THE PHONE THEN SHE WAS LIKE SO SURPRISE AND PASS THE PHONE TO UR DAD AND ASKED HE GT ANYTHING TO SAY ANOT. UR DAD ASKED YOU IF ANYTHING WAS OKAY ANOT. THEN HE ASKED YOU TO TAKE CARE OF URSELF. IF UR CHINA CURRENCY IS NOT ENOUGH, THEN CHANGE UR SING DOLLAR TO IT LAH~ THEN YOUR DAD WAS LIKE SO SHOCKED. HE ASKED ME WHO AM I. I SAID I WAS SEM. THEN HE ASKED ME IF THEY COULD USE THE COM TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU. THEN I ASKED THEM IF THEY GT EMAIL ADDRESS. THEY SAY DUN HAV. THEN HE SAY NVM LAH~ THEN I ASKED UR DAD TO ASK ZHIHAO GT ANYTHING TELL YOU ANOT. I HEARD ZHI HAO SAYING HE WAN XIAO DING DANG.. LOL... THEN AFTER THAT, THEY SAY IF GT MONEY GO BUY PREPAID CARD AND CALL UR MUM.. IN THE AFTERNOON WHEN SHE IS AT HOME.. THEN AFTER THAT THEY THX ME FOR CALLING THEM AND ASK YOU TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF!!!
hmmm.. im a great messenger huhs!! angel good luck kkx!!!!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
12:00 PM
TODAY CYN BIRTHDAY LEH!!! OMG!! HMMM.. TOO BAD SHE NOT IN SINGAPORE.. HAIS!! BUT NVM, MOST IMPORTANT IS SINCERE!!! TODAY I GONNA TAKE MONEY FROM MY AUNT TO BUY HER ALBUM!! HURRAY!!! ((= I GONNA WISH HER A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I HOPE HER ALBUM WILL BE SOLD IN MILLIONS, THE TV PROGRAM SHE WAS INVOLVED WAS WELCOMED BY ALL, THE ADVERTISEMENT SHE WAS PROMOTING WAS OVERWHLEMING WITH BUSINIESS. THE BOOKS SHE WAS PUBLISHING IS READ FROM THE AGE RANGE 6 O 81!! HMMM. MOST IMPORTANTLY I WAN HER TO STAY HAPPY ALSO AND THE REST CAN COME AFTER THAT!!
YOU ARE THE BEST FEMALE SINGER I EVER SEEN. THOUGH I PREFER SEEING YOU SINGING MATURE SONGS, BUT THE CUTE ONE ARE NICE TOO ((= STAY PRETTY AND CUTE ALWAYS!!! THERE WILL ALSO BE A cynFAN~ SUPPORTING YOU!!! THATS ME+ LOL!!! REALLY WISH YOU A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
heppy bdae to you, happy bdae to you, happy bdae to XINLING, happy bdae to you ((=
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Sunday, September 4, 2005
8:07 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE THAT IS BORN THIS DAY!!! LOL!! hmmm holiday liao... i jus pierce one hole on my left.. i gonna pierce another on left again!!! yoz.. then right ear i dunno leh.. too many hole like ah lian and my right ear loob is different from my left ear one.. hmmm... see first lah.. wait for december holiday then i pierce!!! LOL!!!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Saturday, September 3, 2005
8:36 PM
hmmm. ray and angel going off liao.. angel going su zhou.. we chatted at around 4am in the mnorning before she leaves.. miss her alot!! hais.. ray going camp.. at first wan spam him before he leaves, but i fall asleep liao.. hais.. ray go liao.. cannot tell him alot of things.. he is simply a great fren.. yeahhh.. somehow he become my close fren.. psq also.. haha... this two guys suddenly become the one that i tell them my problems.. mostly i tell ray bah.. but my relationship prob mostly i will tell psq... LOL.. ray since last time hav been tellin me to face reality.. though no one noe, but i promise to face it bravely now... to get out of my lock in my heart.. yeahhh.. trying no more vulgarities.. [CHARLIE.. I STOP NOT BECOS OF YOU BUT FOR THE REST OF MY FRENS] yeahhh.. anything in my life face it bravely.. no more vulgarites!! and..i will try stop my QING REN here and QING REN there.. yeahhh..to stop all those love you here love you there things unless i really love you lah!!! LOL.. hais.. is it too later that i realise that?? haha.. no matter wad.. who cares.. i only care about wad my close frens say now.. the rest... i dun give a DAMN bout it!! is this vulgarities?? no right.. LOL.. stay happy.. and hope tml will a better day ((=
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Friday, September 2, 2005
8:04 PM
hmmm.. today me and xinni was fighting over junyang.. LOL he is mine!!! i dun mind being the small one.. you be the big one bah!! haha.. we are so crazy.. but deep in our heart, we hav our limits.. it is totally impossible for junyang to like us.. LOLS!!! he has candyce... i lose liao... i admit defeat.. candyce is chio.. more chi than kelly.. who ask im born so late.. if im 6 years older.. hmmm... maybe thats possible.. but.. looks doesnt matter.. really... he does hav the eyes that give me electricity.. the really first guy that does that... omg!!! but.. hmmm.. thats not really LOVE.. sorta admire... haha.. no matter wad... no more LOVE for me!!!! im trying to recover.. to forget all bout love.. it is so hard!!! the day i recover from love will be the day i stop saying all this "i will be embarrassed" and "qing ren"... hmmm... jus wait.. i can make it!!! i really can!! to get out of LOVE traps!!!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Thursday, September 1, 2005
11:16 PM
hmmm... gt punish by my dad again!! becos of my freaking damn asshole idiotic brother.. i hate my younger bro!! younger bro bring nothing but troubles!! they sux like hell.. dad punsh me.. tahst why i miss the JJ lin sing with kelly that part!!! why??!! i love JJ lin!! he is a genius.. omg.. but i LOVE JUN YANG MORE!!!!
I WANNA MARRY JUNYANG!!! I THINK BOUT THE FUTURE LIAO.. HMMM... 6 MPRE YEARS... 6 YEARS LATER I GONNA MARRY JUNYANG!!! I DUN MIND HE KISS ME NOW COS I ALREADY LOSE MY FIRST KISS!!! OMG... JUN YANG I LOVE YOU.. I LOVE YOUR VOICE.. I LOVE YOUR LOOKS.. I LOVE YOUR EYES!!! I LOVE YOUR SMILE.. I LOVE YOUR EVERYTHING!!! I WANNA MARRY YOU!!! THOUGH U ALREADY HAVE CANDY!! BUT IF ONE DAY YOU TWO ARE NOT TOGETHER, DO FIND ME!! MY HANDPHONE NUMBER IS 81002911.. I WILL BE THERE ALWAYS WAITING FOR YOU!!! OMG!!! I LOVE YOU JUN YANG!!! I ALREADY THINK OF OUR FUTURE DAUGHTER OR SON NAME!!! YOU FIND ME, THE I TELL YOU!! I SIMPLY LOVE YOU!!! YOU ARE ALWAYS MY SUPERSTAR!! I WANNA SEE YOU ON TV AGAIN!!! GOOD LUCK JUNYANG!!! YOURAWKS!!!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
12:44 PM
hmm... understanding... wad can i say is.. ray undersatnd me most.. in this world i ever seen.. angel yixin and lex understand too... i think.. i feel it.. ppl call me keesiao.. they dun understand me well.. yeahh.. im a hypocrite.. a 100% hypocrite.. those that act jus the opposite i truely feel.. ray is the one thaat will truely undersatnd wad i really feel.. even *him dun undersatnd at all.. my parents, my family all dun undersatnd.. and im vrey sensative to the word "keesiao".. u think im jee siao, means u dun understand me.. then.. u hav no right to say it to me.. FUCKERS!!! wad the hell u think u guys are.. there is a song for u FUCKERS!!! shut up by simple plan!!!
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today...
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't want to hear IT
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my WAY
step UP, step UP, step UP
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think your special
But I know & I know & I know & we know
That you're not
You're always there to point out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today
So shut up, shut up, shut upDon't want to hear IT
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my WAY
Step UP, step UP, step UP
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Don't tell me who I should be
Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
And don't tell me what I should do
I don't want to waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear IT
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my WAY
step UP, step UP, step UP
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
shut up, shut up, shut updon't wanna hear IT
get out, get out, get out
get out of my WAY
step up, step up, step up,
you'll never stop me
nothing you say TODAY
is gonna bring me down
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me down
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me down
Shut up, shut up, shut up
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天