12:30 AM 12:07 AM I dread every second of today. Lack of sleep is not a problem. It is the endless things to do and being unsure if what I am doing is on the right track. I guess sleep just make my nasty temper worst. 9:51 AM 1:22 AM 12:23 AM Anyway, I cant quit my easily blush habit. I dont know why, I get red easily. Lol. was great to go out before I went work today! Really enjoyed it. Although there were times that I had to really control myself, but still, all this time makes it great. You know, it's a torture to look and ask yourself to stop looking. As you cant help looking! Hold back bah. It's all those holding back session that makes you felt love. As in th future, you look back time, you will realise how much love you can hold back. And how much it secures and grows stable-ly in your heart. 9:51 AM
12.30.
I haven bathe. I haven research on my mock interview tml. Lol. Need to be in school at 7.30 tml. With formal wear. Lol tml will be a tough day ahead. 8am presentation. 12.30 interview. 5 company visit. I hope for a chill night tml. I need it :D Anyway, someone's asleep right now. Sleep tight kays~ And you must have stinked. Did you even bathe?
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雨天
trying
12:30 AM
I was young, I made mistake. If that hurts you, I would apologise. It's not like Im not trying now. Im trying.
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雨天
dont act smart
5:43 PM
:( Shldnt have undertake so many. Shldnt have tried to take on so much responsibilities when I dont feel confident. Shldnt have given myself so many pressure. Now I feel like I am failing all.
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雨天
Hahaha, people often think I got bored easily and demand new and fun things! But what if one day, Im th one you guys find it bored. Hahaha! Im quite a boring person too what!
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雨天
you're my man!
12:01 AM
Being a fan of free will, there's alot of considerations that dont bother me and I often head on doing things regardless what consequences it will yield. It may be identified as selfish. It may be immoral. But what's more sinful than ignoring what your heart says and deceiving th public by denying how you feel. Face what you really feel. That's bravery. I am admiring this unexpected courage now. Thanks you’re a man.
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雨天
Time will prove everything.
12:34 AM
Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment.
When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No I can't.. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place for you here."
Love decided to ask Vanity, who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"
Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!
Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name.
When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Love, realizing how much he owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."
Hello! It's one last week to th end of school life. And just 3 months to th end of POLY! Just one final project, one final HR challenge, one final lap of attachment, and here will I be saying goodbye to my Polytechnic life! Hao She Bu De Orh! Poly life is th time when I learnt most about myself. Hahaha I never realised th numbers of faces I have until then. Although many commented that I have many sides but I beg to differ eh. Not that many bah~ I just know I shld be serious when I shld be. But when I shldnt, I shld just enjoy myself right? There are only a few who get to know me more, and just a little that accepted me. Fear had always been there. Who isnt afraid to be not accepted? Well, But I overcame it. Because I know I am part of them. They made me comfortable in being myself. Hahaha, Great. Im not weird afterall. Hahaha. Counting down to th period where we bid goodbye. I will try not to cry. Oppps. haha, when had I last cried? I forgot. Hahaha, Stronger than Yesterday. Happy on today. Be Hopeful for tomorrow. Yes, Im hopeful for tomorrow. Who says Im not sticky and dependent? Hahaha, cause you all dont know how to make me to! Time will prove everything. As for today, Happy jiu hao!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
幸福?
1:39 PM
幸福? I am. Hahaha!
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雨天
it's so dreadful that i gna die
11:40 AM
My portfolio seems like a personalised sketch book to me.
I had called MANY COMPANIES for HRC and is not confident to get a company to liase with us at all. So much for being th leader.
I had not start the introductory letter for my internship. Oh god, dont wna fail CSC.
Opps, Im so afraid of failing myself, my team, and th lecturers. After today, I gna sleep until I die. Im serious.
TODAY IS SO DREADFUL!
Looking through photos now, and that makes me feel better. Sighs! It will be over soon! I will get through it.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
fulfilling day
11:30 PM
It was a fulfilling day today. Took a blurry photo that seem artistic, commented by th person in the photo. I think so too! Hahaha, it's like a view where you look into some vibrating liquid. And in th vibrating liquid, stands a couple who enjoyed each other companion. Hahaha, more to come tonight. cause I needa rush my portfolio. Good luck!
Oh ya, I dont eat chilli padi with porridge kays! HAHAHA! Whoever that eats chilli padi with porridge sure is WEIRDO! hahaha! Im not weird, trust me :D
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
identity
11:36 PM
Most of th time, I forget my identity. Im a her, not a him. I dont need to attempt to be strong, at least in front of him.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Sorry, I am going to steal your everything :D
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雨天
Ups and Downs
12:14 AM
It wasnt much of a fairytale. It's reality. Thats what makes thing real. Life is full of ups and downs. Hahaha, was really addicted to Today was a fairytale by taylor swift. Today was a fairytaleI wore a dressand he wore a dark grey tshirt you told me I was pretty when I looked like a messToday was a fairytale
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雨天
sweet surprise
11:54 PM
It is until today that I realise th great Oscar award had chosen the wrong candidates all th time. I had someone close to me that really act well and scare th hell of me today. Hahaha, Happiness, Fear, Anger, Sadness, Change of Gender, O.O, And not only infront of me, infront of th public too! Hahaha. It was surprising. I never expect all this. Anyway, I shall go pick up self defense skills someday so I dont need to rely on my biting skills to inflict pain only! Ouch! Dont flick my ears! PAIN :D
Anyway, got Portfolio, PWB and HRC to be done. Jiayou!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
Presentation tml. Dont feel confident at all. Hmmm, dint go through much of th content. HOW? lucky that my phone supports ppt format! Hmmm, have a good night sleep, get refreshed, go through slides again, have a good pizza meal in school, do a good presentation, have a comprehensive group meeting, attend ntu early admission and scholarship, go meet my date, have a nice dinner, enjoy th stroll and breeze, and ends my day sweetly.
My body is feeling really jelly. Hahaha, time to rest, I know. Eager to sleep, because some people like you always surface in my dream! Nightmares!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
interesting story
11:01 PM
"He kept a hand on the small of her back, both claiming and guiding. She would have resent the implied connection if it's others but she found herself enjoying him close. They had been closed recently, both physically and emotionally. This longing had been building up with time, and finally, courage had done its role to allow them to explore it. Emotions do connects. Behind their violent topic sets the mood of light hearted souls, awaiting to be carassed and loved. Love? Can they trust love again? It was going to be a tough battle, between being together and independent, in a sense, exposing a part of your vulnerable side or being alone again for another couple of years. Pick your choice"
Hahaha, this story seems interesting. Reading it now. ^^
I'd been busy with projects and sleep recently :D Last 2 weeks of school and many projects more to go! Well! I dont like :( Hahaha, feel like sleeping my days through. School recently was great and I dont know why. Lotsa freedom, lotsa autonomy. Lotsa great people around. I like after school hours too. Especially th ones after 6pm. :D Well, this week Im not working Weekdays at all. Not working doesnt bore me now. Perhaps I got many things to do, or perhaps it's just my heart. I had managed to balance it.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
uoh ss!w !
6:36 PM
Define this tingling feeling in your body. Does it feel like there's something against your chest, specifically your heart area? Uncontrolled thoughts skimming through your mind at different rates, as if making a movie about your imagination. There's an intense tingling sensation but there's nothing that your skin came contact with. When thoughts go your way, full bloom smiles print widely at your face. Is this how you feel? Because Im feeling this way too.
uoh ss!w !
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雨天
I enjoyed today. Hahaha. Seeing dogs and pups wagging their tails, seeing innocent cheerful children running around, seeing clear blue sky, breathing in clean fresh air, enjoying th green surrounding! Hahaha, there's th beauty of Botanic Garden!
Sometimes, it's not th physical that connects. It's th emotional and spiritual. I deem physical contact as a booster and also a hindrance. Hahaha. Because physical contact always bring things to a higher level. But physical contact makes you forget how important is it to connect emotionally first.
Hahaha, it needs cultivation. And Im building this part of my soul which I had forgotten long ago. Hahaha I getting th balance in my life. Trust me. Cause there seems to have someone out there who is one who balance my everything.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
a free spirit
2:00 AM
A free spirit here. Im surprised by how much fears I have on commitments. I dont like to be forced. I will never do things against my will. Everyone had their free will, so dont make things my obligations. I will make them mine if it's neccessary. It's like love. Dont force fate. If there's fate, feelings will develop on my side. Quit forcing me.
Can you be yourself with her?
Can she love you when you are at your worst?
Can she make you feel good about yourself?
Do you find that you dont need to test her loyalty?
So, if you force, me, I will never be myself. and never will I force anyone to do anything against their wish, Give and Take bah.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
enjoy here and there
11:47 PM
Hello! I ate SALMON today~! Was sooo happy! :D Anyway, was really happy with my boring lifestyle. Well, I dont think I have lotsa going out activities but, I still think I enjoy my life here and there. Hahaha, God knows that whatever Im doing now, Im enjoying it right. Hmmm, was really easily worn out nowadays. I dont know why too.
Let me recall my task on hand
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雨天
Bake butter cookies yesterday. Yum it tastes nice! But I realise can only last for 2 days! Hahaha, Maybe I shld get an oven asap right. Anyway, Im really tired nowadays. Slept for 8hours for th last two days. But now, Im still very very tired. Lol. I guess it takes forever to compensate my lack of sleep. Im gg facial later. Can rest awhile while Im there. Love th massage. Anyway, it sucks to see how my skin improves but my eye circle is getting worse.
To buy list
Internship
Perfume, Formal Shirt, Skirts, Blazer! Make up: Foundation, Waterproof Mascara, Bronzer, Primer, Waterproof Eyeliner.
Complete my Baking materials!
Oven, Sieeve, Eletrical Mixer
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雨天
Open my heart
11:34 PM
Hahaha, It's never too late to realise that it's wrong to open your heart. As long as you know how to shut it close once again.
Cheerfulness is what greases the axles of the world. It's nice to be admired by someone! Am I always full of smiles, zest and laughters? Hahaha, Miss Sunshine. Lol. But why my blog so emo? Hahaha! I wanted to bring sunshine to everyone. But as for emoness I guess, only people who wants to know, knows it, through here.
I learnt something, Pursuit of happiness doesnt exist. Happiness shld be within you. Why would you run in circles to pursue happiness where you can stand in your own range and feel it within you? Happiness is to want what you have, not having what you want. Hahaha, Am I th reason for your happiness? Cause you're th reason for mine.
Lol, anyway, 4more days!! Gambateh!
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
You know me, but you dont know my story.
4:39 AM
It's nice to connect the dots my own way, paint my very own skyline. You know, It's the magic of risking everything for a dream that nobody sees but you. You may know me, but you dont know my story. How much can you feel about me? And ask yourself, why do you feel this way about me? Hahaha, Im trying to figure this out from people. And there are only few successful cases I had broke, who are th people besides me right now! Im trying to feel our story :)
You know, I had very stern attitude in how I dress and what I dress. And there was a period of time, I lost my stern attitude. Because Im too afraid how people think about me. If they find that Im weird, or it doesnt look nice on me at all. Im afraid of being compared, and to lose in a comparison. After months of the constant mental torture, I finally figure my way out. Lol. It doesnt matter anymore. Th opinion of people wont affect me. I changed myself, and all I get is a state of uncomfortable-ness. Why not, I just be comfortable in myself. If I like too flashy stuff, just flash it to everyone. If I like plain and boring stuff, just be myself in a corner, happying alone. You see, I think, afterall, it's wrong to change when all you feel was uncomfortable feeling, aching all over your cells. I dont hesitate that much anymore when choosing an item. And I had all my opinions and courage to voice out my opinion back.
Hahaha, I dont know how many how times Im gna stuck my head on people that arent th one. But okays, I hope I learnt my lesson each time I fall. Whenever I fall, I will climb up. And my absolute optimisim is really creepy. It's a cycle. I will go through a state of unmovable emoness and negative thoughts, then I will slowly find my way out, on my own. But because of this retarded optimism, I keep finding th wrong people! Because I believe too much. Well, crap. Dont believe so easily! Shit Head you are! Lol. (Shhhh, dont scold those vulgar words anymore). I guess my trust issues are selective. I dont trust when I cant feel, not because I dont trust anymore. It is just it takes me alot more to trust if I think whatever you say are untrue. Im hard to convinced. And if one dont have th patience, lol, I can just die by suiciding, or they killed me straight.
I know Im strong mentally (perhaps not emotionally), because Im never had th fragile heart that most guys are looking for and I always know what I wanted. If Im rejected because of this way, so be it. Im sure one day one will appreciate me, an independent figure.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天
back to normal
12:10 AM
Life's back to normal! After so much changes here and there, after those fluctuating thoughts, I had finally settled down. This stablise life is getting creepy too. After one whole week of trying to get used to my stable life, I still cant get used to it. Hahaha, Becos I guess it's somewhat a signal before a storm starts! Well, anyway, Im really looking forward to 7November. It's an important date to me. And I cant really describe how important issit. Well, I like my stable life now. It's fun, because I got all th decision making powers and Im free to create any fun moments. I love this freed feeling. I love not being restricted. It's all about being stable and fun now. Im getting it.
I breathe from my memories & run wherever my legs would bring me ♥
雨天