我只想实实在在地生活.
不需要飞得很高，只要尽力就好。
不需要得到很多，不用假装就好.
I dont wna live in vain. Many people may not agree with the things I do, but neither of them can pinpoint any ugly incident that is against my conscience. I may have picked up alot of bad habits, it may be wrong in the eyes of many, but how can you define wrong?! I did not harm anyone, neither did I do them against my conscience. I did not let them mislead and have control in my lead, neither do I indulge in them. How do you differentiate a kind person from the unkind? How do you determine someone is a bad person? I believe many view things from people's actions. But is behaviour everything of a person? The pros are the evil one that doesnt reveal their evil thoughts, and masked it with kind intentions. While for those that doesnt want to hide anything, they are flawed , insulted or even humiliated by the majority. Then tell me, how fair is the majority, How wrong can life be?
I had surpassed that stage, I never live in vain, never cared about how others' first impression may kill me. I realise, if you stick too much with your values, at times, you are the one that would destroy yourself. Why not let go a little, and try to live your life with more perspective. Dont live in vain. If you never try, you will never know. As long as there's a limit to everything and make sure you are in control. You can all the right to be in control, as long as you got the determination - that explains why I was rarely drunk and never addicted to cigarettes.
I guess all my very "right" friend out there never wonders why people are indulged in drinking and cigarettes. (Well Im not refering to crazy drinkers and smokers who do so to catch attention. They dont deserve any respect.) They cant imagine all these happening. But I do, I understand. Not only so, I understand "once flawed" people. I understand how much they deprive of the second chances, and how much they are trying to prove themselves. For those who cant accept many things in life, you need to convince me how much humanity you have in you. Because in my eyes, you are worst than many "flawed" people.
I had seen too many things in life. They are no black or white. Many of us are greyed. But we can always choose to shine some light into our greyed area. I guess my humanity thrives because I live to understand, I live to feel emotions. I can feel many people's emotion without them telling me the full story. Thats the strength that I have, and I will put it into good use. My dear friends out there, no matter you appear flawed or "right", never live in vain. Let loose a little but always listen to your conscience. You need to differentiate what is your conscience telling you, and what is your pride telling you. Are you prejudice against some actions because it will bring down your pride? Then you need to let yourself down, as you will realise, there are many things in this world that you have not experience.
