Sometimes, I feel that my life is a BIG failure!
Okays, they say I lead an interesting life?
Issit because I face failure every now and then therefore my life is very interesting?
Hmmmm, failure?
I never give up everytime I FACED it!
but sometimes its is making me so tired if living!
Its not everytime that I can accept it and get over it!
damn and you know I EMO very easily!
but its still okays!
Cause except for emo-ing for one year past for th LONGEST failure!
The rest I still overcome it greatly!
Okays let's talk bout ytd failure!
Ytd, MOS.
I dont really believe I'll go such places!
because of someone!
Yvonne and I will be meeting up!
and then I tot Im sure damn late!
cause my lesson ended at 5 and it dragged for 10mins
den I needa rush home at woodlands and back to clarke quay at 6.45!
but ended up me and yvonne are one of th earliest!
Later reached MOS, but we never get to enter!
basically it's fully packed!
hahhahs after so many squeezing!
and so many people asking me if Im a sp student and my course is?
I finally decided to leave!
hohohos!
Cindy me and yvonne went outta th queue and went to central!
but sadly WE LOST OUR WAY WHEN WALKING BACK!
okays, I know this is stupid! but it's okays! cause Im used to losing my way!
Later th big grp joined us!
actually, I know basically no one in th big grp!
you could say Im anti-social laa!
but cause I really did not bother to take a look at those GPs and other grp members!
thus I really did not remember who are them!
I only remember Daddy Mummy and Libraes!
thus those who are remembered by me are counted lucky you know!
Hmmm but I remember seto and melissa, epilson GLs!
and the rest of GLs, i needa think think think for a long time before remembering them!
we went to eat pepper and lunch!
and I basically very very very very HUNGRY!
cause I only ate CHICKEN wings at 9.40am!
reason why I remembered clearly th time is because I saw seto at 9.40am in sch!
and it's th officially first time he said hi to me!
its 09.36, rounded off is 09.40 (: and I called yixin when waiting for dinner!
she did not answer!
den I called hazel!
thanks god she answer!
if not I think I will cry out again!
LOL althou I find no reason to cry laa!
but that moment Im really feeling terrible!
althou I have no reason to feel terrible also!
I din even eat half of pepper lunch!
totally no mood for anything alrdy!
seto seto seto seto seto seto seto!
everyone keep saying bout me and seto!
Im tired!
if gt anything happen say still nvm!
but totally nothing happen! and this is omg!
I want to go home!
cause I want to go home!
I wan to run away from him!
th him that will not talk to me!
I did not talk to him also haha, cause I waiting for him to talk to me maI went home myself!
daddy was kind to find two guys to accompany!
but overall, I sorta chase them away! and cause they wna check out MOS.
thus I went home alone lo!
hahhahhs
on th mrt, a guy vomited at th public!
and everyone shoo!
okays I dont have tissue! i cant help him!
but he must be feeling terrible!
thus conclusion!
hahhas after typing out!
I feel that I experience no failure!
I KNOW this is lame laa!
but it's all my feelings that is making me feel terrible!
I failed myself!
thus this failure I should handle it alone and never blame on anyone!
cause he dont like me ma!
wad to expect? hahhahas it's my fault laa.
cause Im not good enough for him?
and maybe wad I feel in th past is all a lie!
and the him ma ? it's a secret.
this only make my life goes 30cm "down-er"
when my life go down and down and down, I will accept it and face it!
cause when it has no more space to go down, I know it's time to u-turn!
hahhas means it will become better! (:
As long as I live, There's more I can give!
well I WONDER why I get so emo easily but at the same time, encourage myself so easily!
